all.ard.shazy - e.daily.happeninz'

jaded

2010-11-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

i m jaded..
i m tired..
i m talking to a wall..
i need a comforting hug..
i need understanding..
that's all..

.Sharon.iPhone.

2010-04-19T22:37:00.001+08:00

best.fren

i always thought lifetime partners r like best frenz.. they talk to u,
advise u, comforts u when u cry, supports ur every decision n simply
juz b there always..

i knew we had sm kinda communication issue bt i always thought we can
work / iron it out.. bt lately, i've become to realise dat u simply
isn't of e same communication wavelength.. i tell u A n u mistook it
for Z.. yes, it's dat bad..

i juz can't stand this n m feeling v suffocated.. i've feelings which
i can't release.. i've thoughts which i can't share.. i actually feel
lonely, emotionally lonely..

he doesn't see to my emotional needs n i believe he nvr will.. he's
too full of himself dat he can't see others.. it's juz weird to me dat
he nvr learnt fr his lesson..

i'm getting v drained n exhausted.. hw can i b cooped in e same place
w sm1 who dun even bother to understand hw i tick..

i'm jaded...

2010-03-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

freakin'.shitty.day

i guess today cld b labelled as e shittiest day of my entire life!

first, i was shown attitude by my hubs while i was leaving for work..
on e way to work, i was slammed by my boss..
upon reaching office, i received news that 3 colleagues r on MC..
then 3 hrs into work, e carpark barrier was banged!

obstacles within 4 hrs.. imagine my emotional turmoil!!!!

2010-02-12T18:16:00.000+08:00

PB

it's gng to e time of e year again! pb is gng to come! heehee~ on my list of 'things i wanna get' r:
1. a DSLR (prolly a 500d, kit 1);
2. mattress for home;
3. printer (to replace that ediotic brother printer);
4. new epilator

bt i'm still deciding if i shld get all e items on e list or to select one or two for nw.. i shall decide when i see my pb.. heh heh~

but, more imptly, after taking e pb, shld i leave? leave as in find another job.. i'm still pondering.. i'm still weighing e pros n cons.. meantime, i'm checking out e different organisations on e vacancies.. like what e daily msg fr god app in fb, leave those i can't control, in god's hands.. i'll juz look ard n i believe smthing will tell me if it's time to leave..

2010-02-10T00:54:00.001+08:00

i juz nid u to b supportive n understanding towards e kinda things i
like, e way i do things, e way i see things, e way i handle things.. i
noe yr comments mayb beneficial to mrebt haf u ever thought wat is
that i wan or why is it i m this way?

when u came out, i was supportive of ur realistic ideas bt threw those
wild ideas out. i put trust in u dat u noe wat ya doinv n i hope one
day, i'll feel e same kinda support fr u.,

i'll b honest.. i'm used to my kinda lifestyle n nvr had e habit to
save.. i dun like a life full of scrimping n saving dat's y i landed
myself in where i m nw.. who doesn't wanna live a life which money is
nt an issue?? yes, u work like hell bt at least i'm happy w hw they
pay me (though i still think i'm being shortchanged)..

to me, u've made a wrong move in coming out fr where u were coz it
meant tighter on e belt. for me, i wld haf luv to go bak to teaching
if nt for e miserly pay n dat we haf tons of other commitments.. tell
me hw.. think of e whole picture n nt juz based on a single thing..

i'm nt complaining abt my working hrs, m juz hating my current scope
of work. so if u think ur too tired of fetching me den pls stay at hm
n let me come hm on my own. i haf legs n ez link card n sg has buses
to bring me hm..

sigh.. i juz nid sm1 to tell me, 'i respect n support u in watever u
do'.. rather, i juz nid u to say that to me sincerely..

.shazy.i.

2010-01-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

twenty.ten

it's a brand new year! hw time fliessssssssssssss~

twenty.ten marks e 1st anniversary of DLS too! it felt it was juz weeks ago that we had our ROM party.. keke~ to celebrate our anniversary, we decided to have dinner at where we solemnised our wedding - goodwood park.. u noe, smhw anniversary dinners are supposed to be romantic n all? ours was quite cute.. instead of e usual western cuisine n etc, we had porridge buffet! kakakaka~ weird eh.. bt ok la, it's e thought n ocassion dat matters.. =)

i've been feeling jaded ovr my work.. smhw i dun seem to enjoy wat i'm doing.. i dun like a/c bt i'm forced to do so.. i dun like reports bt i've to do so.. i dun like mundane daily tasks bt i'm obliged to do so.. *sigh* it juz hit me, we're all juz working to survive.. y then do i compromise myself? recently, sm stuff also made me see e ugly side of things.. i dun see y i shld still b worrying ovr my work every other day n slogging my asses out juz to b at e discretion of others? it's sad coz i once thought so highly of this place n really enjoyed my stay.. mayb it's e new env.. i dunno..

haf been making sm thoughts abt my future bt gotta think real carefully on wat i really wan.. i juz wan job satisfaction n one that pays well.. true, there's no job that allows both thus i'm still thinking..

o wells, let's juz wait till e pb comes n decide fr there..

2009-12-03T23:28:00.002+08:00

-sianz-

suddenly, i dun feel i'm enjoying my work nw. dunno y.. *sigh* it juz struck me.. smhw, it's mundane.. every xxth of e wk, i've to submit this.. then e xxth of e wk, i've to submit that.. then it's time of e mth to do e a/cs.. it's a cycle.. everything is a cycle..

say e same things, explain e same matters, key in e same data.. *sheeeesh*

but who can i blame? no one.. i chose dis path.. who can i niam to? no one.. i chose it myself, so y niam to anyone? no one can understand anyways..

even if smthing new landed on my open arms, i'm bound by tons of stuff.. i'm juz e secretariat.. e robot to juz absorb instructions and carry it out, from a - z..

mayb i'm feeling emo rite nw.. bt i hope i can get bak dat vibe whereby i look forward to work.. o, i enjoy e company n e team dynamics bt it's juz e work.. cld it b a sign for me to look outside?

gotta get my engine heated up for e upcoming events on 20 dec.. yea, juz 17 days n nothing is done.. tell me abt it.. i even had to cancel my batam trip so that things are in place.. n nex week, there's internal audit by a super on-ster.. sigh!

i nid a lyfe.. so looking forward to my leave bt then again, baby's nt gng to b in town.. which means i've to take care of e house! *faint*

*drags me foot*

2009-11-09T15:03:00.002+08:00

.yellow.

it juz struck me dat i prob haf a thing for yellow.. well, not yellow clothings or food or watsoever.. probably yellow characters wld b apt! hahaha! y do i say so? here's y..

when i was younger, i adored tweety bird (yes, dat fella dat goes, 'i tawt i taw a puddy tat! i did i did!').. then nw, i'm into pooh & spongebob!!! heh heh~ i dunno hw it happened but it juz did.. my workstation is currently flooded by spongebob balloon (kudos to baby), spongebob whacko (kudos to stan), spongebob calendar (kudos to xiao hei), spongebob post-it (kudos to xiao hei again!) n sm spongebob toys.. not forgetting ah pooh's cup, ah pooh's handphone holder, ah pooh's toys too! goodness.. it's becoming more toys r us than a workstation BUT i LURVE IT!

oh, n i wanted to get e 400% spongebob bearbrick but then i felt it looked too spastic.. buahaha! n i realised they have e same one in 100%!! so probably, i'd juz source ard for e 100% (less spastic).. kaka~

anyhws, i'm juz blabbering coz i haven quite updated my blog for sm time n juz wanted to update it a little.. heh heh~

so, in 6weeks time when ur thinking of wat to buy for my bday, i believe u haf a better picture eh? hahahaha!!!

2009-10-11T00:01:00.002+08:00

hope.u.get.it

i noe it's selfish of me to wish for this.. but i really hope u can get it.. yes, ur tired but i hope u understand where i'm coming fr.. e past month or so, u haf tried in vain n i believe u understood hw difficult it is for u to b outside..

i see it as us moving forward instead of backwards if u stayed on.. i've been praying too.. for u to get it.. if u do get it, i hope ul also take e opportunity to strive for ur own upgrading..

hope we'll hear good news soon.. *fingers crossed*

2009-10-10T23:48:00.003+08:00

mum's.new.resting.place

last wed marks mum's 5 yrs departure (based on lunar calendar).. her resting place had a major major revamp.. mum's urn was moved here n there throughout e past year or so n FINALLY, renovations are done n she's enjoying herself in e air-con suite.. YES, u saw right.. AIR-CON SUITE!

here's what the new management did to e place:

e lobby
(along the plants, is the water feature.. cool ehz)

mum's suite

i'm amazed at hw this whole place turned out.. we saw it on paper when e new management showed us their plans.. they had depicted this place to be similar to that of a hotel n my my, they have succeeded! e lobby is way cool n e suite, it has sofas for pple to chill! juz like any suite.. bt i'm glad mum finally has a proper n comfy place to rest.. =)

with such renovation works n architectural designs, vacant resting places are nw priced 300% higher than 5yrs ago when mum passed on.. i heard it's abt $30k for a single slot! $30K!! imagine, i've gotta start saving money for my afterlife resting place too!

2009-10-01T00:08:00.004+08:00

loving.ol.folks

last sunday was my last bwc project as a cdc-ian.. n i cld really feel e rock being lifted, right after e event.. =)

anyhows, quite a bit happened at e event - good, bad, weird, serious.. u name it, it had it.. as usual, e participants were ol folks n they usually complained abt e long distance they had to walk.. fyi, dat day's walk was 3.8-km.. yes, it's a killer even b4 they started walking.. n due to sm logistic issue, quite abit of e folks didn't quite go on e 3.8-km route.. while some did..

as i was leading grp 138 to e route, i saw an ol couple walking towards me.. wat warmed me, was their interlocked hands w each other.. e uncle w greying hair was holding tightly to his wife (i presume) n walking alongside her.. slowly n steadily to accomplish their 3.8-km feat.. kudos to them!

dis e couple..
sweet eh?
they seemed like they were in their own world,
enjoying e scenary with each other in tow..
hw nice..

i wish them blissful-ness always!
aunty, uncle, u brightened up my sunday! =)

2009-09-06T15:56:00.003+08:00

no.problem.i.can.walk

today's my last bwc event n it also marks e first & last time that i've been tasked to b e last walker (i've nvr walked during bwc events as i had to run ard to ensure things were done).. anyhows, i wanted to share abt wat i saw dis morning..

being e last walker, i had to ensure that no participants r left behind n to 'collect' e safety marshals.. as i was e emcee, i had to catch up w e last few walkers so that i noe that i'm def e last walker..

i caught up w this couple - e middle-aged guy was walking w a limp n beside him was his wife (i think).. i had thought that this couple was not part of our group as they didn't don our tshirt but i decided to ask to make sure.. i was wrong.. they ARE part of the 2,000 participants there for e 3-km walk.. as e uncle was walking w a limp, they were e last two walkers thus i decided to stick to them just to ensure that e uncle can manage.. oh, e uncle seemed to have been injured before as he couldn't really move much of his left side..

e uncle even shared that he went to our office to try n look for a job.. he was offered one but decided nt to take up as it required him to handle cash which he wasn't v comfortable w.. i was also taken aback that he is still actively looking for a job despite his physical limitation.. i salute him..

e walk was filled with slopes, both up and down.. at every slope, i'd ask e uncle if he can manage, he said, 'no problem.. i can do it, will just be slower..' and concentrated on his walking.. his wife wld always hold out her hand for him to support whenever they hit e slopes.. i was quite touched when i saw this scene..

e uncle also felt apologetic that he was holding me up due to his pace but i reassured him every time n rephrased wat he told me - 'no problem.. wat matters is we complete the walk, no matter how slow or fast..' he gave me a smile.. =)

it was probably at abt e mid-point dat i had to tend to an elderly n evacuate her out as she couldn't carry on w the walk.. i asked e couple if they wanted to stop walking n catch e ambulance together but e uncle maintained his statement that he can complete e walk.. hence, i told a volunteer to help me b the last walker and see that the couple reach e end point.. thereafter, i zoomed out to arrange for e ambulance to fetch e senior..

at e end point while dashing here n there, i saw e same couple reaching e distribution point (which was near e end point).. i was so happy for him that i shouted YEAH! i was proud of him dat he completed the 3-km walk n v happy to see his smiley face dat was filled w accomplishment.. =D

i learnt 2 valuable lessons fr this couple:
1. to always believe dat u can reach ur destination n nt b dampened by hw much time u take;
2. as a lifetime partner, we shld always b ready to stretch out our hand to support each other during difficult times..

to e uncle: shld u b recovering fr injuries, i wish u a speedy recovery.. may u also get a job dat is suitable.. i applaude ur determination n strength.. thank u.. =)

2009-09-05T01:00:00.003+08:00

juz.7

it's juz 7 more days to e day i bid farewell to everyone at cdc.. mayb i will nt feel it right after coz i'll still b popping by to follow up on my last project due 27 sep.. thereafter, i believe e feeling will hit me..

today was my last time seeing mdm chan as she'll b on leave e whole of nex week.. i gave her a hug.. after i gaf her e hug, i cld feel tears coming and i quickly tell her i had to leave (i was also in a rush as i had a dinner appt).. i had many things to say n convey my words of thanks to her but i stopped myself coz i think i'd burst into tears..

mdm chan is a very adorable lady.. sometimes she makes ur jaw drop w her cute actions or statements.. she's like a mummy to me (well, she is a mummy to a 10yr old boy).. i'm so gng to miss her n our lunch dates..

this place is e longest i've ever worked since i came into e working world n of coz i had many great memories n many dear colleagues whom made working life more enjoyable.. *sigh* i dunno wat will happen to me on my last day - 11 sep..

will i burst into tears? will i not?

2009-08-22T16:41:00.005+08:00

stereotyping

most of u prob noe i have 2 blue streaks on my hair ya? i didn't quite get into trouble at work but my gm advised me to change it b4 i leave.. well, i cld understand her stand coz she'd wan her officers to look presentable n blah blah blah.. bt wat i dun understand is that why is blue hair nt considered ok for working professionals?

red is a colour n so is blue n green n pink.. so why is red hair being accepted n categorised as 'normal colour' but nt blue / green / pink hair? more often than not, blue / green / pink hair has been associated w e terms - wild, funky, punkish.. who started such stereotyping? i find such stereotyping, RIDICULOUS..

we are living in a modern society but w traditional mindsets.. if we can't accept out of e norm stuff, hw can we even encourage creativity or thinking out of e box?? juz bcoz one has 'weird-coloured' hair, he / she is sentenced to b a wild and can't-take-things-seriously person? nonsense.. wat abt one whom has tattoos? does it mean that he / she are uneducated pple? NONSENSE too.. such are stereotyping that was passed dwn fr years back..

in my case, i feel it's weird that we can't have such coloured hair bcoz we are always trying to keep up w times n getting pple to b creative n think out of e box.. but smhow when u think out of e box, there's still a boundary.. in any case, e world out there has opend up so much but where are we still at where we were prob 20yrs ago? why do we package ourselves as such?

why dun we open up our mindsets, b inclusive n look beyond things? mayb this way, e group that we hope to attract can find us interesting enough to want to check us out..

2009-08-22T16:25:00.003+08:00

20.days.to.go

in 20 days time, i'll b moving to a new workplace where i'll need to do shifts n don uniform.. culture is gng to b diff, colleagues are gng to b diff.. i'm feeling e 'bu she de' already.. i'm afraid to pack my cubicle coz i'll feel sad n may even tear.. but i have to, coz i've got too much stuff..

juz last wk, sm colleagues were telling me that they r gng to miss my weird sounds.. dat made reality sink in.. i'm really leaving.. leaving this place that i've ran ard, threw stuffed toys, shouted, walked ard bare-footed for almost 3 years.. i'm sad coz i've got great colleagues whom made my workday pass by easier, whom make working OT more enjoyable! *sigh* i'm so gng to miss everyone..

e countdown starts..

2009-08-22T16:10:00.005+08:00

me.health

smhw at age gng 30, i started to worry abt my health.. mayb bcoz my lyfe has slowed dwn.. i used to b super active n doing sports at every single free moment i haf.. but s i grow up n get caught in e corporate world, e lazy bug took e chance to attack me n made me one of them..

looking back, lyfe was abt playing hockey n more hockey or juz zipping thru e crowds at ecp on my 8 wheels.. it was till 3yrs ago.. when i stepped into where i m nw dat i allowed e lazy bug to rise as e king n ruled my lyfe.. i felt energy-less to do sports..

i miss my olden days body n lifestyle but my motor juz cldn't seem to get started.. nw, i've decided to pick up my lyfe n health back coz it was last fri that my doc told me i gotta lose sm kg b4 smthing bad happens to me.. (well, i've nvr been dis heavy in my lyfe b4 so i guess my body is acting up) so scary to learn abt that thus i've decided to DO SMTHING n stick to it starting fr nw!

i'm gonna stick to my wed-fri combat routine n add on a session pump (as recommended by my doc).. juz praying that i won't get crushed by e weights during pump.. keke~ cutting dwn on unhealthy stuff will also b on my list coz i'm a sucker to such junk food.. i gotta do it gradually and continually.. i shld b able to do it.. after all, i snubbed out my ciggies almost 2.5years ago.. this time round, i've gotta snub out e fats n bring back my health!!!!

2009-08-18T01:12:00.006+08:00

om.om

kekeke~ i bought a new hp.. *grinz*

ul never guess e brand of it.. coz, this is the FIRST time that i'm using this brand!!! i was skeptical abt it in e beginning but then after using it, it blew me away!!!!! *BLOW*

ok ok, here goes...... i bought e SAMSUNG OMNIA 2!!!! n yes, i named it om om! hahahaha~

this phone is really like e iphone! e sensitivity, e flow, e everything la.. oh, i lurve e pics that it can take w e 5MP cammy too!!! n e diff scenes that it can do.. here's one specific one - e panorama!!

it stitches up 8 shots n paste them together oh so nicely!! kekeke~ i'm really so satisfied w me om om!!! *muack muack*

gosh.... 1st time i bought a samsung phone n lurve it so much! *faint*

2009-08-14T22:28:00.004+08:00

new.trainers

for e first time in my life, i bought an adidas trainers.. yeaps.. u heard rite.. first pair of ADIDAS trainers.. i've always owned nike trainers ever since i was into sports so prob that's abt 15years ago? yeah.. i juz smhw have a fetish ovr nike stuff.. haha! i still have loads of nike sneakers but they r more for gai gai use.. keke~ (coz baby was niam-ing at why i'd need another pair of sports shoes.. my arguement to him was those are for gai gai, nt to trash it during tennis, gym or runs, that is if i ever go running..)

after 15 yrs of being a nike fan, i decided to give it up coz e quality is juz ain't lasting, for adidas! hahaha!

ta dah! that's me new trainers!

keke~ noe y i stuck to nike for e past 15yrs? one reason was coz of their design.. smhw i prefer their design to other brands thus leads to me e nex reason.. i think it looks weird if one wears a nike top, maybe an adidas bottom n then a puma shoe? keke~ it juz feels weird to see 3 logos sticking out as an individual when the wearer tries to piece them as one.. thus, i kept to nike all e way.. my gym gear r mostly nike with two exceptions.. u noe, u get ovr such things when yrs pass..

anyhws, i lurve the colorway of this trainers n can't wait to put them on monday's class!!! yippies!!!

oh, i'm feeling much better already after puking twice n starving myself till dinner.. heh heh~ (juz a random update to my food poisoning mc today..)

2009-08-11T20:14:00.001+08:00

brue.hair

kekeke~ i changed that 2 ash white streaks to BRUE!!!!

see e super tired faces???? hahaha!

2009-08-11T19:33:00.004+08:00

day.out.w.zz

thanks to e long weekend, baby n i decided to bring our godson zz to e zoo, along w bayi! =)

zz hasn't been there.. (nt surprising coz he's only coming to 15mths);
bayi hasn't been there for i dunno when;
baby hasn't been there since pri sch days;
i haven't been there since i left e preschool industry..

our 1st stop at e zoo? KFC!!! hahaha! it was to fill our stomachs for all e walking that we are gng to do.. well, zz had to eat before he starts getting cranky!

anyhows, e zoo was rather ok.. e animal show was kinda boring so i took loads of shots of zz instead..

after e boring animal show, we went in search for e kidzworld! coz, we have a KID w us, we have to go to the KIDZworld.. haha! but it looks damn fun lo! it has a HUGE water play area n this big bucket of water juz pours water at every 4min interval!!! KOOOOOOL! hw come we dun haf that when we were kids!!! not fair!!! *bleah*
keke~ it was a fun but duper tiring day @ e zoo! especially when u spend a day like this w ur loved ones! prob nex stop, shld bring zz for swimming fun! =)

2009-08-09T13:01:00.001+08:00

new.look

kekeke~ finally, i changed my blog's outlook.. heh heh~ have been stuck w e old one for sm time already thus i feel it's time for a change! keke~ more refreshing! =)

2009-08-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

national.day

tml's national day! woohoo! i'm gng to e parade!!! keke~ i've always liked gng to e parade!! it's juz so ... ... ... erm, national day! haha~ e atmosphere is totally different fr staring at e box! having attended parades at national stadium and e floating platform, i wld definitely choose for e parade to be held at e former.. smhw, e feel is different too when it's being held at e floating platform.. =)

to celebrate e nation's bday, one would have noticed that our neighbourhood are decked out in a sea of red n white, flying our nation's flag.. but wait.. did e residents actually fly those flags?? well, maybe i shld ask - did u fly ur flag? i DID! keke~ it's saddening to see hw lesser units flying their flags nowadays.. it's usually e grls that do e work of tying all those flags.. hhmmm, wat happened? is it bcoz no one knows where to get e flag? or is it no one knows we can even fly e flag?? or is it we are juz plain lazy???

while we take pains to plan our loved one's bday or that of ours, we kinda forgot to put in e effort to at least show that we are in a celebratory mood.. hw sad.. it's juz flying e flag outside our units and probably be decked in red / white on 9 august.. but hw many pple do that now?

i rem when we were in school, we had nday celebrations.. but when we enter poly n then uni n then workforce, where did all these observance or celebrations go to? shldn't we still celebrate our nation's bday? or probably just to observe this once a year moment by singing e national anthem or reciting e pledge? (well, i had that thought when i saw throngs of students wearing red last friday and compared to e dressing of e pple at my office..)

that sparked an idea to me.. maybe we shld follow e thai culture - they wear either pink or yellow on mondays in respect for their king.. we cld do e same - wearing red on mondays! heehee~ juz a wild thought..

but i hope fellow singaporeans wld start to love n b proud of this very nation that mould us to who we are today..

2009-07-26T14:09:00.003+08:00

tennis

finally!! it's our FIRST tennis session ever since we 'graduated' from our tennis class last year! keke~ but only 3 of us - ah blur, ah lian n moi! (b1 sent us a A380 while ah tian had e flu bug..) anyhws, we had our tennis session at e best hidden court located at bt panjang! kekeke~ surprised that bt panjang even had a tennis court rite???

well, let me share where exactly it is.. =)

address: next to blk 478, segar road..
condition of court: excellent!!
rate: $3.00 per hr
how to book: via segar rc

coooool eh?! kekeke~ anyhws, it was damn hot yday when we played.. i guess that's why i'm nt feeling so good now.. having a slight flu n migraine.. ggrrrrr.. but then, e session was fun! it was great catching up w ah blur n ah lian too! keke! =D

2009-07-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

i.wan..

..a pair of salomon fsk skates;
..a pair of philippe starck watch;
..a pair of nixon watch;
..a pair of white birkis;
..a pair of nike rifts;
..a pair of onitsuka tiger;
..an agnes b/gucci/kate spade tote bag;
..a flying pigeon bicycle;

but hor, i dun nid any of e above.. *giggles*

2009-07-21T23:03:00.002+08:00

goodness.gracious

today, i learnt that some1 is gng to take over my portfolio when i leave.. well, i'm nt that surprised but i feel i'm a psychic coz i felt that X has been eyeing on it since X arrival n i'm right! no doubt X is efficient but i smhw dun like e idea of giving my 'baby' to X!!!!

mayb i'm feeling this way coz i've been attached w my portfolio n dun wan X to touch.. or mayb i think X has sm weird way of doing things that will drown watever i put in place.. mayb xiao hei is right.. i shld start detaching myself fr my portfolio but really can't leh.. 3 years.. 3 years of cleaning up, setting things right, fighting hard to make it grow like hw M wants it n nw i haf to hand over to X???? goodness gracious, i can't swallow this.. but i guess i have to..

but i'm glad that i've built up a network w e grls n had their support whenever i needed.. =)

2009-07-19T15:01:00.002+08:00

new.destination

yeaps, i'm gng to my new destination soon.. when i found out abt it (mind u, it's found out n not learnt about), my heart felt abit weird squeezed n my mind went through this flashback of memories..

(oh, i didn't know abt my transfer being successful until i was asked abt e post that was featured in e classifieds.. but, i'll wait till e official letter then b convinced that i'm really gng! these days, u nid to see e black n white.. haha!)

when i visualise myself on my last day at work, i can actually feel tears in my eyes.. gosh! i dunno if i'd really wail on my last day but i noe for sure, i'll b v sad.. why? bcoz i'm leaving a group of pple whom i've grown to love n b attached to for e past almost 3 years n i'm gng to miss them so much..

who are they?

xiao hei (whom we have gotten much closer since last year or so);
karen (whom started me gng to gym n get back on track w a healthier life);
mdm chan (whom is ever so cute n blur n has a heart of gold!);
thom thom (my buddy whom have helped me catch a breather);
cs (my ea of almost 3yrs whom have helped me grow our portfolio);
mr beh (my dgm whom is filled w all sorts of knowledge, provided me w aspects that i never saw n supported me in his own way);
yp (my srm whom was a fren at sm pt of time, provided me an example of hw to survive in e place);
bwc champions & bwc coordinators (we are like one big family - working together to build it up!);
my cubicle (e place that i sat so comfortably in, whispered secrets, munched to our hearts content);
n e list goes on.. (there's too many to name!)

i dunno hw it's like ovr at my new place.. i hope i can b as noisy ovr there.. =)

2009-07-12T16:51:00.005+08:00

thick-skinned irritant

this irritant is famous (to me, infamous) for e frequent mass sms that he likes to send to pple.. i used to be on e list of sendees until i told him to unsubscribe me.. it's ultimate irritating to b receiving useless sms fr him.. his content? usually, it's abt pple in e office.. think juicy office gossips n ul noe wat i used to receive..

anyhows, recently his mass sms was abt pple applying for promos n even calling them ass kissers.. gosh, wat a sore loser.. juz that others are on better terms with their superiors n not him, he validates them as ass kissers.. wat's e big deal abt pple seeking for promo? at least, it beats working as e same position for many, many years or thinks he is damn great n experienced when actually, he screws up e simplest things..

few days back, another sms saying abt e same pple gng for promo but nt getting it n still leaving.. wow, i muz applaud his news.. but at e same time, i think he shld verify his leads.. sad case.. thinks he has all e latest news only to find out that they are only half-truth..

oh! i mentioned he's thick-skinned ya? well, it's coz this irritant keeps popping by n walking ard like he's still e 'king'.. gosh.. when u decide to leave, pls stay as LEFT.. i rem smone even comment that he didn't give his colleagues time to miss him coz he is always ard! hahaha! i bet his pea brain didn't digest that as a hint that pple dun quite like to see him ard.. there was once that he even passed me a fax that belonged to me.. gosh! does he still think he is part of us? sad case.. he gotta use a business to get close to his 'dear' colleagues.. *tsk tsk*

to e irritant or his SPY - open up ur eyes to see who are real in front of u.. pple whom have helped u, u think they r dirt.. only to admire n kiss e feet of pple whom have stabbed u.. gosh!

2009-07-09T20:57:00.003+08:00

decided

yes, i've decided..

i've decided to go.. i spoke to a few peeps.. they gave me perspectives that i didn't see n that helped.. =)

why go? bcoz..

i'm worn out of e workload at e current place;
to have a different experience n see if i really like e field;
when i become an scm in e near future, i can tell my colleagues that i've been thru wat their positions;
to find my motivation once again..

why no go? bcoz..

i'm afraid that i'm taking a longer way when i can actually go up any time nw;
i'm afraid that i can't cope w e workload & culture;
i can't bear to let go of my portfolio (i've been at it for e past almost 3 yrs) and e people that i've known fr it
i can't bear to leave my current comfy workstation, env n colleagues (well, most of them)

yups.. that's my analysis..

to quote fr b1..
"no venture, no gain.."
wat will i gain? experience n exposure..

"u never know till u try.."
wat will i know? if i'm cut for e field..

yes, i've decided.. decided to go..

2009-07-09T00:15:00.002+08:00

decision

i have to make a decision..

do i stay n try my v v v best to get my performance up the scale?

do i leave n experience a brand new place at e same level?

having gone for 2 interviews for e position n getting 2 smashes in e face, i smhw felt that mayb gng over there but being at e same level wld gif me a better edge as compared to me gng directly fr where i m (w no experience).. sounds logical eh?

but there's a part of me that is nt satisfied.. y is it others can go directly bt nt me?! wat is it that i did wrong? or m i juz suey these mths that i always choose e wrong place?!

a part of me wants to throw bak all i have n leave to e new place but yet a part of me wants to stay n prove myself.. it's a challenge.. coz i'm jaded..

juz nw, after gym n ovr din din, uncle ed n tabs said i shld go to a new place even though it's lateral movement.. coz i've been jaded w my current position for so long.. time will pass slowly.. but if i go to a new place, things will b different.. brand new place w brand new things to learn..

i dunno.. i m lost.. wat do i wan.. mayb i juz dun like e feeling that colleagues who joined after me managed to climb up e ladder earlier.. i do nt know which is a correct choice.. do i stay n TRY to do my best? or do i go? having a lateral movement ain't that bad ya? bt come to think of it, pple are trying to get into my place while i seem to b e only crazy fella trying to go down.. wth!

*confused & can't think properly*

2009-07-04T21:54:00.003+08:00

tired.week

last week was super tiring.. everyday i was rushing sm stuff.. esp nw dat cs is on long long mc, we had to see to e administration part of all those report updating la, water request la.. n bcoz it's e start of the mth, all the funny things are floooooooding in like flowing water!

then there was the council appt which needed sm of us to attend rehearsals on thursday n the afternoon of e event day.. that was like time burnt.. past 2 days (i.e. thurs & fri), i was working like 13 and 14hrs each day respectively coz of e dumb rehearsals which went on n on n on..

today i'm feeling o so tired n nua.. everything i did, was slow.. hahaha~ e aftermath of working too many hours.. though i was so tired, i woke up at 930am! damn! wanna sleep in also cannot.. *sigh* but luckily baby was tired so he didn't niam at me for being nua.. keke~

we went isetan to get sm vouchers, bought sm stuff.. then to ikea to get a drawer for our study room n then queensway for me to get sm stuff too.. thereafter it's hm sweet hm.. throughout e trip, i was yawning away.. every other minute.. *yawns*

alrights, i'm gng to wash up n sleep early.. baby wanna wake up early tml to run.. *faint*

2009-06-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

pang.teh.pics

yessssssssssssssssssssssh!!! hot fr e oven!!!! e pics are out!

juz click on my web album n viola! it's there oh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

enjoy!

2009-06-26T23:03:00.003+08:00

pang.teh

o yes, forgot to update this earlier.. last sunday (21 jun 09), we had our 'pang teh' ceremony done.. as we may nt throw a wedding din din, we decided to have our 'pang teh' earlier.. keke~

it was a simple affair - we were decked in white top, jeans n same brand sneakers.. haha! e venue was at MIL's place for guy's side n bro's function room for ger's side.. simple buffet w balloony decor filled e function room..

well, this 'pang teh' ceremony is more for our traditional familiy who only deemed couples are married when they go thru this ceremony.. ROM not counted hor even though u haf dat piece of paper fr e government.. that was e rationale why we wanted to get it done asap..

anyhows, here's sm pics.. our official photog is still working on it so will upload e pro photos when he's done.. keke~

on e way to MIL's place

e groom & bride!

our DIY decor - brue.brue

e throne for e teh drinkers!

e balloony entrance

2009-06-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

fri.day

it's a friday n i'm HOME! kekeke~

nope, i'm nt whining about it.. i'm actually happy about it!!! u noe, smtimes each of us need that ME time to ourselves.. n i think once a week, ME time is goooood re-energiser! haha! last week i had a few hours ME time after getting my hair done.. shiokadoodle!!

today, i'm juz home w my lappie n e ever interesting internet.. hahaha! moreover, i m quite tired as e past few days haven been sleeping enuf.. i'm having dark eye circles liaoz! gosh! think i muz head to my facial place v v v v soon..

okies! i'm gng to surf e net nw!

2009-06-18T17:14:00.002+08:00

wise.words

was ranting to my SIL in e afternoon n she told me this...

"relationship is how u want to make it work, not whether it will work"

i read.. n then reflect upon it.. it's true.. we, need to want to make it work instead of thinking if it will work.. =)

so, this will b e sentence that i'll live by..

2009-06-17T21:48:00.003+08:00

dr.v

kekeke~ last nite, i had another dream..

dis time i dreamt of mdm n dr.v.. *blush*

i was at this event with e both of them n then we headed to smwhere else.. mdm went off while i hopped onto dr.v's car n mind u, he was driving!!! kekeke~ (dis part wld nvr ever come true.. *sigh*)

anyhws, we were chatting in e car n suddenly his phone rang n he answered it in fluent dialect.. my goodness! boy, was i shocked!! thus, i commented - wow dr.v, ur so fluent in e dialect.. n his reply - of coz.. in my line of work, i haf to be fluent in many languages to better connect w others.. at dat moment, i felt bimbotic dat i passed dat remark.. *ggrrrrr*

well, dat was e end of e dream.. n i guess it'll juz remain a dream.. haha!

2009-06-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

mission.killer

kakaka~ i had dis dream few days bak..

i dreamt i was a killer n was on a mission in hk.. *hiak hiak*
but when i was out at 'nu ren jie', i bumped into my mummy.. i asked why she was gone for so long n she said smthing like she was sianz.. anyhws, mummy was in her work clothes n mentioned that she was at hk, holidaying w her colleagues (who were also in their work clothes)..

then, i lost her in e crowd.. i got upset n cried.. smhw, tears flow from my eyes too coz i woke up w a startle.. then i went bak to sleep..

this time, i was at a hotel.. then one of e gcm, mr chan called out to me to go ovr n have my picture taken w e group.. n e group were e 14 scms of nwcdd!!!! goodness!! wat a twisted dream.. oh, i mentioned that i dreamt i was a killer ya? well, i never got to dreaming e killing part or who i was tasked to kill.. hahaha!!!

2009-06-17T12:38:00.002+08:00

merry.go.round

once again, i'm on dis merry-go-round.. gng round n round..

quarrel, act as if nothing happened, normal, quarrel again..

each time, we quarrel for e slightest matter (well, at least it seems e slightest matter to me)..

i dun get it..

y can't we see eye to eye? y can't we talk properly n come to a concensus?

m i pushing him too hard? is he not looking at my pt of view?

i dunno.. *sigh*

make me feel less confident abt our future..

2009-06-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

family.day

today is family day for e lims (erm.. that's us! me, baby n bibi!) hahahaha! anyhws, we woke up at about 9-ish n headed for sm dog carnival @ fort canning.. jass was e one who 'gai xiao' us coz she was e woman behind one of e decal that was selling there..

anyhws, ms bibi was so excited (as usual..) abt her trip there n cheong to all e dogs.. having done events for e past 2.5yrs, when i saw e tentages there, one word came to my mind - budget! nt that it was falling apart kinda tentage but it's juz so scattered n it's more of a shelter than a tentage.. hahaha!

e tentages were spread along this stretch of steps.. so we had to slowly move up e steps to view e booths.. n being ms bibi, she jumped one step n then took e easy way out of walking along e slopey grass.. hahahaha! ms lazy bum!

but we didn't stay too long though coz it seemed like it was gng to pour! (ya, ms bibi seems to b a 'hor sin' coz whenever we bring her out, it'll pour!) so we dropped her to e groomer to have her wash up n cut her missy nails while we drop by wisma to try n source for a nice, white, long-sleeved blouse..

no luck.. no nice, white, long-sleeved blouse.. ggrrrrrrr! ended up buying a nice, black, sling bag fr porter.. well, it was on 30% lo! so, it was a gOOd buy! =)

went back to pick bibi up n headed home.. e lims were so shagged by then.. keke~

dinner was done w dad & aunts at a nearby kopitiam.. followed by dessert - durians!!!!! dad know i loved durians n bought good ones!!! yummy!!! *rubs tum tum*

simple but fulfilling day..

2009-06-13T12:42:00.002+08:00

n97.FINALLY

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i is a happy ger!!!

why??? i got me n97!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *woots*

after all dat ding-dong fr m1, i finally laid my hands on e 2nd last set at bugis!!! buahahaha!!!!! best part, it was white!!! exactly e one that i wanted!!!! thank god!!!!!!!!!!!!! *muacks*

well, juz in case no one knows what hw n97 looks like.. here u go.. *hiak hiak*

i lurve me phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

applied

initially, i had made up my mind nt to apply for dat position.. coz i didn't wanna lose my life..

but smhw, after having heard where e position is at, i was so interested! (weird eh?)

it's a dilemma actually.. i didn't wanna cheong already but at e same time, i dun wanna b stuck at where i m nw.. it's like having slogged for e past 2.5yrs, i had to go smwhere.. i can't die a mgr.. hahaha! that's e irony..

o wells, let's see hw things go fr here ba.. =)

2009-06-08T14:41:00.002+08:00

urge

after having abstained fr it for 2.5yrs, i suddenly had an urge.. past few weeks, i was craving for it.. but i kept my stand n didn't let myself run loose.. dunno why but i guess i was feeling frustrated n wanted smthing to disperse them out..

well, it was tough when i made that decision coz i started it when i was sec 2 or 3? but i really got into it when i was 19 until 2.5yrs ago, w sm occasion of stopping n starting again.. it wasn't a cool thing for me but i juz kinda liked it.. that was hw i picked it up when i was sec sch.. i actually asked for it.. u noe, usually u wld offered n dared to try it? well, i asked for it fr a fren.. *sheepish smile*

anyhws, that was then.. thereafter when i was 19, most of my frenz were at it.. thus making it tough to throw it away altogether.. those were e days..

but i'm also glad that i decided to stamp it out of my life altogether.. well, it wld haf been diff if my workplace had alot of these peeps.. so, my job kinda helped me stamp it out..

to my frenz who r still at it, ul noe when to stamp it out.. it's au natural.. if u force it, it'll b worse..

2009-06-08T14:35:00.002+08:00

ol.skool.pics

heh heh~ smhw, i got addicted to uploading ol skool pics of meself onto FB recently.. think i'm flooding it w ol time pics.. so fun when u juz look at it n laugh at hw toot toot u were then! hahaha~ well, sm peeps dun enjoy that kinda cheap thrill like i do.. nevertheless, e pics are already up! buahahaha~

well, it started w me rummaging thru my heaps of photo albums n transporting meself back to 1970s, 1980s n even 1990s!! gosh! i'm like old but nah, i'm juz hitting my 3rd decade on planet earth! BLAH! kekeke~

anyhws, those times were really enjoyable n e pics were entertaining! fr e tootsy dressing to e geeky specs to e awkward poses.. hahahahaha~ it's really retro!!

hiak hiak~ i can't stop laughing!! *gasp*

2009-06-06T15:57:00.001+08:00

love.hate.$

i think everyone of us has a love.hate r/s w $.. who doesn't?

why do i say so?

well, i love it coz it allows me to purchase stuff that can satisfy my wants n quench my thirst for specific luxury items! with $, i can do anything i wan! i need not crack my head to plan if i can move on to another area of life or if i can ever survive in this fast-paced, high standards of living place..

well, i hate it coz it can b e root of problems.. pple quarrel over it due to it being inadequate.. pple quarrel / fight over it when things turn sour.. it juz suxx.. that's why e saying, 'money is e root of all evil', is so true!!!

o wells.. i think i'm juz too bored @ home that i'm running such thoughts off my mind..

2009-06-06T15:48:00.002+08:00

thoughts

been having weird & funny thoughts running thru my mind..

suddenly miss e good ol' times.. suddenly miss doing sm of e things dat i did in e past..

dunno why they came into my mind, out of a sudden but they did..

was rummaging thru my old photos n everytime i see those outings that i had w my different grp of frenz, they bring a smile (more often, a laughter) to my face.. =D

mayb i was juz catching a breather.. life is forever on e go.. needed smthing that can bring a smile to my face..

2009-06-05T17:30:00.002+08:00

12.to.2

remember that i had 12 hammies?

well, now i've only 2.. we decided to give away most of them..

here's their new homes:
1 m - nw named theodore n adopted by my pri sch mate;
2 f - adopted by zh scm;
7 b - given to pet shop;
1 f & 1 mummy - waiting to b adopted..

sigh.. hope e 7b will find new n caring homes soon..

bye bye, hammies.. take care oh! it was great fun looking after u guys n gers..

*muacks*

2009-06-04T23:09:00.001+08:00

tonics.galore

morning = chicken essence

afternoon = red date drink

evening = tonic soup

nite = wincarnis

*burp*

2009-06-03T20:18:00.004+08:00

7.days.HL

m into my 3rd day of HL..

1st 2 days was painful n restrictive.. i couldn't sit up, stand up, walk.. all i cld do, is lie dwn.. b it on my bed or sofa.. i juz had to lie dwn.. m experiencing pain.. ggrrrrrr..

today was much better.. i cld do more things but slower.. feel like an ah-ma..

luckily, my MIL ain't working n cld prepare special food for me.. really grateful to her coz she also has to take care of my nephew.. poor baby also had to drive all e way to yishun n collect e food..

da sao n bro came on monday to visit too, bringing along ingredients n a slow cooker (which i didn't know i already had one..) to teach baby hw to make soup.. heh heh~ nex day, da sao came ovr to bring me dis wine to drink.. m so touched.. even my bro whom i always taught he is bo chup, whispered, 'take care ar.. anything call hor' b4 they took their leave.. =)

m really happy n felt fortunate dat everyone is so supportive n caring during dis period of time.. esp to mdm chan, who even offered to cook for me even though she has to care for her hubs.. m really touched.. thank u, mdm chan for e stuff u bought n even ur kind thought.. god will bless both u n ur hubs.. =)

it's gng to b another 4 days at hm.. but luckily, baby is on leave n at hm w me.. thanks baby for all u've done - e cooking, e support, e care, e ear dat absorbs my whiny-ness..

2009-05-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

thank.u

wanna say thank u to yp..

she came ovr today to talk to me n pray for me..

m really thankful for her thoughts n effort..

i didn't expect it from her..

but it gave me strength..

we prayed for a miracle..

mayb i wasn't convincing..

but i really dun wanna lose it..

it's a role that i need to get used to it n i'm beginning to!

god, i hope ul pardon my earlier confusions n doubts..

i'm sorry for having those thoughts, i juz needed time to settle my feelings..

i m really, really sorry..

2009-05-31T15:29:00.005+08:00

hammies

good samaritan baby picked up 2 cages of hammies one day.. they were put in 2 cages - 1 had 1 hammy while e other had 4 hammies.. they were abandoned in the lift by their previous owner whom even stuck a note saying, 'please take care of them..' well, we took them in coz it was juz so cruel to continue leaving them in e lift..

so, our hs became a mini zoo.. w 5 hammies n 1 doggie..

probably abt few days later, e 1 lone hammy gave birth!!! to a total of 7 baby hammies.. gosh!!!

see those pinkish bodies?
that's e babies!! born on 4 may!

ok, nw dat we have 7 additions, our mini zoo juz got a little bit bigger! 12 hammies n 1 doggie!! gosh!! but baby seem to enjoy caring for them n can't seem to bear to part w them.. but can understand.. they're really cute..

it's been almost 1 month nw.. let's see their growing up shots!

see e little one? its eyes still closed! nt much fur too!

slightly more fur now n munching on their own!

n these are e other 2 hammies..
(think they are much older, like 2 months when we got them)

so, any takers? heh heh~

2009-05-29T22:52:00.003+08:00

gone

e verdict's out..

i lost it.. i really lost it.. :~(

though i kinda prepared myself for it.. i can't help it but feel sad..

yes, it may haf relieved me of my worries for e past few weeks but it was smthing so dear dat we were both looking forward to as well..

it seemed so right when we learnt abt it..
but, it's nw a thing of e past..

mayb it felt my stress n confusion thus decided to leave..
but, i noe wat i wan already..
but, it's all too late..

smhw i can't help bt think bak n ask if i've done any mistakes..
but, no pt thinking anymore..
coz it ain't coming bak..

s much s i m trying to b strong n nt think abt it, my tears flow..
when i saw e pics, my tears flow..

i guess n hope time will help to heal..

2009-05-25T22:30:00.001+08:00

3.5 days

it's a countdown to either a painful or miraculous verdict..

wat will it be?

i'm keeping my fingers crossed.. very crossed..

pray for me..

2009-05-21T21:19:00.002+08:00

worried..

it was a worrying 2 wks wait..
it's gng to b another 1 wk..
dis time, it'll b even more worrying..

i feel helpless..
physically, i can't do anything..

all i can do is pray..
m praying w all my might dat all is good..
i really, really hope god will ans my prayers..

2009-05-13T20:33:00.006+08:00

brue.brue

keke~ dat's e name of our car.. =)

smhw, i juz lurve giving names to my stuff.. i had a creative mp3 player which i called m-ie.. haha!

anyhws, presenting BRUE BRUE!!!!!!!!!!!
(erm, photos ain't quite updated..)

yes!! that's our brue brue - a blue suzuki swiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiift!!! (heh heh~ nw u noe hw brue brue got its name hor..) haha! it's nt a brand new car though bt everything abt it is damn new lo!! anyhws, like i mentioned earlier.. these pics ain't too updated coz quite abit has been done by baby.. had wanted to update earlier bt didn't haf e mood to blog then.. keke~

2009-05-12T15:48:00.002+08:00

.regret.

i'm nt too sure if there is any1 out there who doesn't live in regrets.. mayb there is.. but i dun think i noe e fella.. heh~

well, talking abt regrets.. i had thought i wld nvr regret any decision i made.. but recently, i realised i regretted smthing that i decided a few mths back.. if any1 can rem, i had an offer to move to dis place (kinda known for a retirement village).. it was a lateral transfer.. i rejected it..

y i rejected it? at dat pt, i was hungry.. hungry n ambitious to climb e corporate ladder.. i had a good chance to move on to e nex level n get a promotion.. thus i rejected e offer to b exposed to another field of work.. thinking back, i feel so stupid to reject that offer.. but, i can't turn back time.. so, i'm stuck at my current place.. doing e things that i've been doing for e past 2.5yrs..

i think i'm quite tired.. tired of e constant running for e past years.. i need to stop n take a breather.. smhw, it juz hit me that there's more to life than climbing up dat corporate ladder.. e time spent in front of my lappie on weekends, cld haf been better spent w frenz or w e j siblings..

xiao hei is rite.. i'm tired.. but i still lurve my portfolio.. juz dat i dun seem to haf e strength to carry on running.. currently, i feel kinda stuck.. i can't change portfolio 'coz there's no other vacancies.. i can't move to another division 'coz of sm reason (nt dat i offended other pple).. sigh.. nvr had i feel so stuck in life.. i've always been v clear n confident of my decisions.. bt nw, i'm holding bak.. every x i think of walking north, i stop n think..

i need to take dat 1 brave step dat xiao hei said.. yes.. 1 brave step.. bt hw??? wanna lateral transfer, no vacancies.. n time seems to b running out.. on e other hand, i m thinking to go bak to e education industry bt i haf smthing dat is holding me bak.. ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

i need a light!!!!!!!!!!! or rather, a directional sign..

hw i wish life can b e same as e adventure book dat i read when i was young.. u noe, e kind which u had to make decisions n u flip to this particular page.. yeap.. coz if u made e wrong decision n 'die' earlier, u can always trace bak!! ggrrrrrrrr!

help me, god.. i really need an opening.. if nt, i need e strength to carry on w my portfolio.. it seems dat's e only 2 options i haf.. sigh..

2009-04-28T12:24:00.001+08:00

i is a happy ger! =D

2009-04-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

pissed.insulted

somebody said something to me dat pissed me off totally n which made me feel insulted too.. it's been a long time since i felt this way.. this f***er actually asked, 'you noe why nursery teachers' pay are so low?' wa! damn knn lo! n dis qn came abt when dis other person (let's call her A) shared w e f***er abt e correct pronunciation of certain words.

dis f***er juz brushed off A's sharing that i said this word was meant to b pronounced otherwise.. so i replied n said this was being taught in school n accredited.. it was then, e f***er threw dat qn to me.. i was too pissed to even explain further.. dis ignorant f***er apparently juz looked dwn on me n my command of english.. well, i can't say i speak perfect english or haf e highest standard of english.. but i did learn hw to read a dictionary (i mean e phonetic symbols) when i was doing my dip in ech..

smhw i kinda fumble when i speak in front of dis f***er bt there are times when i speak proper english too.. mayb dat was why e f***er thinks whatever i say abt english or e pronunciation, it's better not to believe or trust..

oh, n u know wat kinds of words were being brought up for e correct pronunciation?
they are: milk, their, flour

now listen well, u f***ing piece of shit, dun look dwn of pple juz coz they dun perform in front of yer.. b open-minded n listen.. if u dun trust my knowledge, jolly well speak in front of a native n get ready to b laughed at..

i can't believe anyone could b so shallow as to insult e position of a nursery teacher.. n my answer to that insulting qn? it's because of such ignorant fools (including e stupid f***er) who think that early childhood education is nt important or that being an early childhood educator is an easy job n nothing to b proud of bcoz we clean e kiddos backies. i say up yer arse!!! go try n b an early childhood educator for 1 week n i can assure u dat ul b on ur knees kow tow-ing to me n e rest of my early childhood educator frenz!

n hey f***er, u juz crossed my path way too far.. u can forget dat i'll ever treat u nice or w any respect.. coz it's all been flushed dwn e drain.. i'll wait for e day that u get laughed at for mis-pronuncing e words..

2009-03-30T20:39:00.003+08:00

kopi.club.outing

heh heh~ we brought bibi out to holland v!! kekeke~ was craving for kopi club's chix pie n since it was dog frenly, we decided to bring bibi too!

anyhows, bibi is like sm suaku whom juz came dwn fr e moutains.. she was so excited!! she couldn't sit still, kept whining, looked around, barked at every single person whom walked past! so funny!

baby w bibi

shld bring bibi out more often.. muz make her less suaku.. kekeke~ mayb we shld haf a doggie gathering!! hahaha~

2009-03-30T20:24:00.003+08:00

horsie!

after my medical appt last thurs, we decided to check out this 60s live seafood dat's situated right inside dis ulu place along eng neo ave.. it's actually behind turf city n along it, we saw horsies!!! yes yes!! ma(3) in chinese.. hahaha!

anyways, here's a pic of e cute horsies!!

horsies grazing along..

i lurve dis horsie!! its mane is sooo cooooooooooooooool!
o, if u look closely.. u can spot its willy.. kekeke~

anyhows, it was really nice to see these animals grazing ever so slowly on e grass, not giving a hoot abt e ticking clock.. unlike me, stuck in a splatter of commercial buildings, shopping centres n roads, looking @ e clock n rushing e pile of work dat's nvr depleting..

mayb i shld go find e horsies more often to keep my life balanced..

2009-03-30T13:24:00.003+08:00

suey?

somehw i feel this year is e suey-est of my past 29 yrs of life!! i dun wanna nor do i noe hw to describe hw suey i m but most of e things esp in terms of work ain't quite smooth..

mayb i'd juz gif an example..

i emailed this scm & acm of a particular cc n cc-ed my covering buddy n i remembered dat i cc-ed e bwc champ too (coz it was kinda follow-up email thingie).. amazingly, instead of e bwc champ dat was cc-ed, e email address evolved into dat of an adviser!!! i nearly fainted when e adviser replied my email saying dat i cld haf prob cc-ed her by mistake..

u may think it's coz i accidentally typed e adviser's email.. but it's nt! why? coz...

1. we dun usually email advisers direct.. we wld usually go thru their PAs..
2. i wld use copy n paste even if i haf to email adviser direct.. n i remember clearly dat i didn't (n i repeat, DIDN'T) open up e advisers' contact list n copy n paste e email addy onto e outgoing email!!
3. i also remember clearly dat i had keyed in e bwc champ's name (his email addy is saved in my local add book n will thus appear when i key his name)!!

so, wat cld haf happened?? it is still a BIG question mark in my head.. so weird.. or mayb suey? above is juz ONE example..

sigh..

i really hope e suey sin will leave me fast..

2009-03-16T21:01:00.002+08:00

new.game

heh heh~ baby bought rayman raving rabids TWO!!

i'm so happy coz it was sold out at a number of places.. kekeke~ but e games are making my arms ache!! but it wld b more fun if some1 cld play w me.. any takers?????

2009-03-10T23:40:00.003+08:00

new.toy

kekeke~ i bought meself a new toy! well, nt really a toy..

it's actually an intellectual game which involves 4 peeps, 148 tiles n add a tinge of swimming movement.. kekeke~ yeaps!! i bought meself a mj set!! wat's so exciting abt dis set?! well, it's MINI! haha! n it comes w a table top too! convenient to haf dry swimming anywhere n anytime, even if there's no tables! hahahaha!

here's a peek at me tiles!

yeaps! dat's me tiles! in comparison w me hp, e71! kekeke~ v mini nehz! bt fun wor! oh, e green top is e table i mentioned earlier oh! kekeke~ so, anytime anywhere, mj can b there! haha! HUAT AH!

2009-03-10T23:33:00.003+08:00

leaking.office

for e whole of last week (or is it e week before last?).. anyway, it was juz raining like crazy every single day.. e rain usually starts at abt noon time n then goes through e evening.. it went on like dis for days (heng, on sunday which i had my event, it was shining!!)

anyhows, when it pours cats n doggies, here's what happens in our office (steps away from my cubicle):

yeah.. pails, plastic bowl and plastic cup r all being whipped out fr e pantry's cupboards n placed near e windows.. er, no we're nt trying to b super green here by collecting rainwater n re-using it for smthing else.. we r juz literally leaking..

dunno hw dat can happen bt it's been like dis ever since i stepped in.. juz dat it seems worse nw.. hahaha~ anyhow's e water smhw evaporated when we went bak office e nex day.. or did sm thirsty hippo came along n drank it all??!!!

2009-02-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

job.fair

today's my 1st time, helping out a job fair.. it saw throngs of pple! pple came in from s early s 8.00am n kept on streaming in until e very last minute at 4.30pm.. it was a tiring tiring day bt one dat brought me to e reality of life n our current situation..

w all dat talk abt economic downturn n hw govt is helping e companies on sustaining their business n hw sm pple r getting retrenched n so forth n so on, i didn't really feel e impact until today..

all kinds of pple came to e job fair..
- pple willing to take on any job juz so they haf sm income;
- pple willing to take on any pay;
- pple dressed in shirt & pants;
- pple dressed in t, berms & flip-flops;
- pple who were our grandparents' age;
- pple who were of sec sch age;
- pple who brought not even a pen for interview;
- pple who brought their resumes & stacks of certs;
- pple who know wat kinda jobs they r looking for;
- pple who know nuts abt wat they wan;
n e list goes on..

most of e js were nice n understanding.. sm gave a look when we had to restrict to registered peeps s it was way overcrowded.. looking at them, i felt a need to help them in any way i can.. well, we were tasked mainly to help them fill up their application forms n provide directions shld they require any..

that said, i was exploited.. haha~ this aunty claimed she didn't noe hw to fill up e form n asked if i cld do it on her behalf.. so i said yes, i can fill up 1 form but then ul need to copy it to e other 2 similar forms.. she said ok.. with that, i explained to her wat e form required n filled up e info as we go along.. e aunty was also complimenting hw nice my handwriting was when i filled up e info.. now, when we came to e part abt whether she could speak and write english, she said YES..

stunned, i looked at her n asked, 'aunty, u noe hw to write english ar? den hw come u not filling up e form??' she said she can't see well n because her handwriting was chak chak n believed that i would have better handwriting which will then gif employers a good impression! well, she is right to a certain extent but she could haf juz told me right fr e start that her handwriting was chak chak!

anyhws, she managed to talk me into filling up e other 2 forms for her.. so while filling up e last form, her fren said it wld b better for her to fill up e forms personally as that would mean more sincerity.. the aunty then suddenly asked me nt to fill up e form anymore n dat she wld like to fill up by herself..

i'm like diao! i finished filling up all e forms liaoz lo!!! best part, she asked if i cld gif her another form so that she can fill it up in order nt to get a possible scolding fr her potential employer! i told her dat we r unable to as there is a kinda restriction and left her to wait for her fren to finish filling his forms so that they can head in n shop for jobs..

cute aunty she is.. i guess she's juz trying her best to land herself a job.. i hope she will get e job that she applied for!

anyways, it was really an eye-opener n a hit into e reality of life / situation dat we are in.. nt forgetting, i still haf a cubicle to call my own n a mthly income to look forward to..

oh, i also hope dat dis other uncle dat i helped to fill up e forms will get e job dat he applied for.. =)

2009-02-26T21:22:00.002+08:00

bad.news

i juz heard a bad news..

my 2nd grand aunt left us today..
she joins my 5th grand aunt who left us some time at the end of last year..

though they r my grand aunts n may seem very distant, they r nt.. i wld see them everytime when i went over to my grandma's kampung.. we were kampung families.. everyone stayed under 1 BIG roof then.. we had e luxury of e chasing chickies n climbing trees.. nt smthing e kids wld or cld do, nowadays..

anyways, these grand aunts saw us grew up.. only when my aunties had to move to e flats, communication was reduced.. it became once a year, during cny dat we c each other n try to catch up s much s possible..

sigh.. i guess such things come w age.. when ya older, ya tend to receive such news.. n only den, memories of wat happened between e person n u will flash thru yr mind.. sad bt it's reality.. we come to dis earth, only to leave dis place in another 50, 60, 70 yrs time..

it's scary.. bt it's e way of life, i guess..

2009-02-17T20:07:00.002+08:00

my.dream

i had a nice dream last nite..
i dreamt of my mummy, who left me 5 yrs ago.. (woah, time really does fly)

it took place at my old place @ ghim moh.. i was staring at e mirror in e kitchen n in e reflection, there she was standing and looking at me..

i turned around n suddenly, we hugged each other.. no words were exchanged.. i asked mummy, 'are you happy now dat i'm married?' she nod her head, giving me dat bear hug dat went along w her.. it was e kinda hug dat i wld always get fr her when we were having mum & daughter time..

thereafter, i woke up..
e last time i dreamt abt her, was when she juz left.. i still remember dat she said she missed n loved me.. i too, said to her e same thing..

whenever i would dream of mummy, i take it that she had come back to look for me.. n bcoz we can't connect physically, she used dreams to connect to me.. sounds very tv eh? mayb to u, it is coz ur mummy is juz a scream away.. bt mine is up above..

anyhows, that was my dream last nite n i do hope to haf many such dreams..

mummy! let's talk in e next dream! lurve ya! =)

2009-02-07T10:40:00.005+08:00

headache

well, nt literally e hair-pulling kinda headache.. more of a decision-making kinda headache..
smhw, i think i'm at a crossroad.. i dunno hw i got there bt i did..

s much s i love my current job, it has also weighed me dwn.. it's a high key portfolio which means for e past 2yrs 4mths, i've been running non-stop on e treadmill turned up to 100km/h.. that's tiring n i do need a breather.. when i first came in, i was wondering y did e previous officers left after a stint of 2yrs or so? doesn't seem dat boring or difficult bt nw, i understand..

at e same time, i can't bring myself to juz drop dis portfolio n move to another.. y? 'coz i haf dis bond w my coordinators, champions n even walkers whom haf made my portfolio to grow to dis size.. n also bcoz it's a high key portfolio, it has given me opportunities to b seen n heard..

so, wat's my headache? well, i'm deciding where i shld go fr here.. there's a lateral transfer dat i can go to bt it's gonna b another 2yrs of proving myself b4 i can go for a promotion n i'm nt sure if it's wat i really wan.. OR i can move to another portfolio n wait for promo opp to come bt i'm nt sure if i'm doing it out of haste n jaded-ness.. OR i can go bak to e ech industry n b a principal bt dat will mean a BIG pay cut.. at dis juncture of hitting e big 3, i feel it's important to choose e correct career path..

mayb i juz need to recharge my batteries to continue my portfolio.. bt i can't find e source.. work is on my mind every other day.. my mind is constantly working n thinking abt work n e wat nots..

e irony abt me being tired of me job is dat e other day, i was preparing a ppt for a mtg n was calculating if we could achieve our M's dream of 50k.. guess wat? we WILL if everyone hit their targets!! n suddenly, i felt dis surge of happiness in me n e inability to let go of dis portfolio.. mayb coz e target was juz so high in e air dat i felt it was ridiculous n upon seeing it being achieveable juz blew me n made me realised dat our peeps are all putting efforts in one way or another.. dis unity of strength is simply amazing!

thus e headache.. alot of tugging everywhere n i can't seem to b clear abt things.. sigh.. HELP!

2009-02-07T09:46:00.005+08:00

update

been some time since i last blogged.. was way bz n tired w everything else thus didn't manage to input anything.. keke~ anyhows, it's updating time!

we had an open house on 31 jan.. peeps came n left in throngs.. peeps dat i've nt met for smtime came by too.. it was great seeing everyone! everyone commented dat e house was way different fr much earlier.. heehee~ of coz la, if it's gonna b e same, y shld i renovate?? hahaha! anyhows, at least 1 person understood e theme of me hs - modern retro, n dat was jassine!

bt i dun blame no one, i didn't play up e retro bit too much coz 1. baby is an uncle, 2. baby is still D uncle.. haha! gotta respect him too neh, afterall we juz signed a life treaty.. =)

anyhows, for those who didn't make it for me open house, i've got pics to share! bt of coz, u guys r still welcome to me hs.. for sm dry swimming or chilling out sessions.. oh, e photos are all taken in comparison w e previous outlook.. enjoy!

false ceiling

living room

dining room

kitchen door

kitchen (view 1)

kitchen (view 2)

common toilet (view 1)

common toilet (view 2)

e rest of e rooms ain't much to see so i didn't put up.. but juz fyi, it's a different room colour for e 3 rooms - orange for master, green for study n yellow for e empty room a.k.a future kid's room.. kekeke~ so, wat do u think? sm said it reflects me totally.. i kinda think so too.. hahaha!

i LURVE me hm!!

2009-01-17T21:13:00.004+08:00

d.l.s by e pool

d.l.s @ home
(together w bibi)

2009-01-17T21:07:00.002+08:00

3.jan.2009

2 weeks ago, we signed on e dotted line.. =)

our wedding rings

d.l.s

2009-01-08T23:15:00.003+08:00

irritated

yday was my 1st day bak in office after a long break n boy, did i receive bad news..

sm work processes need to b changed drastically n immediately.. n all bcoz of wat?! 1 bloody small incident.. wa kaoz.. really jaded when i heard e news.. tmd.. n when i disseminate information to e peeps abt e new work processes, wat do i get? showers of scoldings n complaints.. sigh..

tmd! i dun get it leh! yes, work processes can b changed BUT one needs to think through it properly n it takes time.. not juz ok, like that can do.. piangs eh.. this work process has been changing like every single year n pple r getting confused!

i'm so irritated.. i feel helpless.. knowing dat e new thing is a total out of e world, i've gt no choice bt to nod my stupid puppet head..

yes, i'm a puppet.. watever they say muz do, i haf to nod.. smtimes, my head will defy n my mouth will come to work in throwing out explanations for my stand..

i'm jaded bt at e same time, i lurve my team n i still lurve doing events.. juz dat i'm jaded..

if u noe hw to unjade oneself, pls let me know..

2009-01-06T23:43:00.004+08:00

my.bday.celebrations (part2)

cont'd..

after e surprise stay @ hotel intercontinental, it was back to home to accompany our dog for e day b4 we head to clarke quay to catch e fireworks hippo tour!!

e tour is a bumboat ride fr clarke quay all e way to marina bay for e countdown n thereafter e fireworks!! splendid arrangement!! need nt squeeeeeeeeeeeeeze w e tons of peeps on land.. it was really, really packed all e way! gosh! it seemed like half of spore was there, waiting for e sparks in e air..

here's sm photos!

us @ liang court (nearest carpark!!)

heehee~ can u spot us?!

e party revellers @ clarke quay!

us on e hippo boat otw to marina bay!

testing out our party poppers!

fellow hippo participants of other boats

fireworks!!

more fireworks!!!

baby taking vid of e fireworks!

us w e fireworks!!!! (i lurve dis shot!)

2009-01-06T17:57:00.008+08:00

my.bday.celebrations!

heh heh~ dis is a overdue post.. kekeke~ was really bz e past weeks so didn't manage to blog bt only managed to squeeze sm short messages or so.. here goes!

my bday celebrations started a day earlier (i.e. 30 dec).. baby sent me to get my hair n eyebrows done while he is engaged in sm stuff or another.. once done, he told me to cab dwn to hotel intercontinental to meet him.. (keke~ sm surprise huh? muz b gng there for a stay la!) juz s i thought, he brought me to our room n prepared e tub for me while he rushes hm to cook for bibi..

*rriiiiinnnng* e phone rang.. e bellboy was on e other line.. he said he had to resend smthing to me as he didn't manage to get me earlier.. *ding dong* i opened e door n viola! e bellboy was holding to a bouquet of helium balloons! (keke~ he looked s though he was saying, 'can u hurry accept it?? i feel kinda dumb holding it') hahaha!

come evening time, baby was back w dinner! kekeke~ it was our favourite salted egg crabbie fr labrador park! *slurps* thereafter, it was nua-ing all e way..

at e struck of midnight when bday smses were streaming in, baby whipped out a macadamia cheescake fr nydc (w a yellow candle!)..

(oh, it wasn't lit up as we didn't haf a light! LOLx)

it was a really nice n sweet surprise! didn't quite expect it s we were in e midst of moving house n preparing for our rom.. kekeke~

THANK U, BABY for all u've done! *muacks*

there's more to share on wat we did on new year's eve! bt till nx time, 'coz i'm running late for me appt! =)

2009-01-02T00:11:00.003+08:00

happy.2009

woots! itz 2009 liaoz!!

here's wishing all my loved ones, best buddies, colleagues n friendssssss -
a HAPPY, PROSPEROUS, HEALTHY, WEALTHY, WONDERFUL, MAGICAL new yearrrrrr!

*hiak hiak*

gotta find another day to blog abt my bday celebration oh bt it was v thoughtful n sweet n ended w a blast (literally)!! =D

2008-12-28T23:48:00.002+08:00

bibi wishes all doggies & peeps a merry woof-mas!

2008-12-26T01:08:00.005+08:00

merry.x'mas

ho ho ho! here's a merry, merry x'mas to u n ur loved ones! =)

dis yr's x'mas was quiet.. no partying.. no booze.. no screams.. BUT
it was well spent w loved ones..

we had lunch w bro & family @ jack's place, bpp.. it was followed by a short pop-by @ our hs.. bro & da sao toured e hs while e kiddos glued their eyes on e tv n fingers on e ps3 controller..

after they left, we went dwn to great world city to grab sm furnishings for e hs.. zone denmark was our 1st stop.. their dishes n hm accessories r rather ok-priced n cool (well, sm of them).. we gt sm cups, s&p shakers n other accessories..

nx stop - lifestorey! their things r so cooooool!! i lurve kartell designs.. was aiming this 2-tier storage thingie n heng ah! they r still having sale! e 2-tier storage costs $108.00! (didn't charge me e GST since i took e display pc) kekeke~ i took e display piece s i was too lazy to make another trip to collect a new pc since they had to grab it fr e warehouse.. there were many other pieces dat r cool bt r way ovr my budget..

i grabbed e black one to match me master bedroom!

nx, we popped by molecule n saw dis gigantic fatboy beanie! way comfy n versatile bt kinda ex! bt baby lurved it too so, he bought it.. n it came in red! perfect colour to spice up our living room..

our versatile beanie! even bibi lurves it!

off, we went to best denki to grab an iron.. dunno much abt iron so anyhw grab one dat has a steam.. hahaha~ oh! we even managed to find e retro push-button phone! n it's juz $30.00! buahahahaha!

last stop was ikea where we fell in lurve w a rug.. longish rug in black w a red stripe.. nice.. n cheap! $15.00 nia!

w all those shopping we did, we popped by labrador park to ta-bao our favourite salted egg crabbie, black pepper crabbie n salted fish fried rice hm to feast! our x'mas feast! hahaha!

we had fun despite e absence of loud music n booze.. hope u had fun too!

oh, our hs is more or less done up le.. keep a lookout for our invite in jan oh! =)

2008-12-24T23:19:00.001+08:00

online.shopping

http://pallygiraffe.com/index.php

here's a nice webbie w nice baggies!! check them out! i like their long-nosed pinocchio baggie!! kekeke~

2008-12-23T16:53:00.003+08:00

20.dec.photos

kekeke! as promised.. e photos of e humans!

e bday gers - moi & di

moi, di, ju (e hostess)
gam xia for e cake, food n venue oh!

guohui, me, di, apple

moi, di, celeste & frenz!

moi, maverick w our doggies

(together w e jumping celeste)

US @ e table!

US w our pressies!

2008-12-21T16:42:00.004+08:00

20.dec

we had our xmas party las nite!! kekeke~ it was small n cosy.. juz e way we want it.. close friends, good food n lovely presents!

ju prepared chilli crab, fried man-tou, fried shrimp n vodka..
maverick bought ribs..
guohui bought 4 pints of B&J..
di brought glutinous rice n pineapple tarts..
joann & bf brought prawn salad n roast chicken..
celeste & frenz bought titbits n wine..

me?
i ordered shepherd's pie!

it wasn't juz a gathering for e peeps.. 3 bitches (literally) joined in e fun too! lily, e doggie mistress of e house played host to bibi (mine) n magnolia (maverick's).. it was such a sight to see them play or rather more of magnolia being hyper (she is a JR) n disturbing every1 else.. haha! even ms bibi gt a bit stunned at hw dis doggie can b so hyper 24/7..

well, e pooches obviously can't lay their teeth in our food ya? bt no fear! uncle des is here! haha! baby ordered xmas meal for e 3 pooches! hw fortunate eh?! they enjoyed a feast of rice filled with roast chicken, smoked salmon, meatballs n broccoli!!

anyhw's, e party was mainly lazing ard n catching up w frenz.. followed by sm gambling n e celebrating of our bday (dino & me)! kekeke~ nice, sweet celebration! (thanx ju 4 preparing all e stuff.. *hugs) afterwhich, it was gift xchange! (i gt a massager! woots! can use in office lo!) n then it was more lazing ard b4 e game of taboo.. n nt forgetting, photo taking!! hahaha!

i dun haf e pics of us humans coz they r wif either ju or celeste.. bt, i haf e one w e pooches! we tried so hard to get all 3 of them to lie in front of e xmas tree! trust me.. it was no joke, esp w one hyperactive, one atas-behaviour n one owner-follower..

e best shot of them looking @ e cam!
(taken w me hp so abit chak chak la..)

it was time well spent..
enjoyed every bit of it..

let's do it again soon!

merry xmas n happy holidays!
*muacks*

2008-12-20T10:21:00.001+08:00

almost.ready

juz a few more touch-ups.. most likely by xmas, it'll b ready!

can't wait!

woots!

2008-12-18T00:50:00.002+08:00

vpost

heh heh.. i bought a bag online.. from ralph lauren webbie, to b exact.. kekeke~

it's nt e first time i bought a bag bt it's e 1st time i bought via an us webbie and bringing it in via vpost.. hahaha! suaku hor.. b actually, i've gt dis vpost acc for donkey years bt nvr really used it till last sunday.. kekeke~

i bought e bag coz it was on sale plus it's only available at the polo @ dfs bt nt e rest of e stores lehz.. bt anyhows, it was an experience to buy via vpost! hahaha!

anyhows, i was afraid it'll nt come.. bt today, i received an email fr ralph lauren saying it's been shipped!! buahahaha! meaning, v soon it'll reach me hm!

k, once i receive e package i'll put up e pics! =)

oh oh! sidetrack abit.. i'll also b collecting my gucci bag on coming monday oh! woots!!!

bags!! i've got new bags!!!

2008-12-14T22:35:00.003+08:00

irritated

we had a full day event y'day.. a futsal tournie w many peeps under e scorching sun.. it was sheltered bt heat can travel u noe.. so it travelled to where we were.. nt much wind blowing so it was rather humid n dry.. w a reporting time @ 6.45am n e throngs of pple flooding e place n sm weird qns, naturally one's temper ain't too good ya..

but still, it's nt a good reason to flare up w another colleague.. dis fella threw a temper @ me for e slightest matter (to me)..

it was lunch time n since there wasn't much to do, i told him to eat first.. he replied, 'wait'.. so ok, i grabbed a lunchbox, finished it n told him to eat.. he replied, 'wait!' i told him nt to wait n to eat nw.. he STARED @ me.. (stare @ me okie! peeps who noe me since las time, wld noe wat i wld haf done to him if i was e old sharon) he grabbed e nearest lunchbox n another colleague told him that belonged to her.. he threw that lunchbox on e table n walked to e big packet of lunchboxes and STARED @ me AGAIN! (wa! i super pissed man!)

knn! @#&*! dis f***er stare n threw a temper @ me when i asked him to eat.. wat kinda MAN is he? anyhows, i tahan his nonsense n abstain fr talking to him.. so irritated!! here we r trying to get everyone to eat asap so that we can always cover others n let them eat b4 it's too late n there he is, throwing temper @ me when i asked him to..

i wouldn't b bothered to ask him to eat if he was an oldie.. being a noob, i wanted him to haf time to eat n nt starve.. we, oldies can starve if there isn't any choice.. but we haf to take care of e noobs.. dun understand y such a simple logic also dun understand.. kaoz..

anyway, i'm thinking if i shld talk to him abt it.. make him realise why i did dat n mayb to set things rite a little..

shld i?

2008-12-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

tkl..again!

las fri, i went cwp for sm xmas shopping for me loved ones n colleagues.. i'm amazed @ hw i can manage to find stuff for everyone at cwp.. didn't think it was dat happening, ya know.. hahaha!

anyhows, i was q-ing @ e taxi-stand n infront of me were 3 tkc along w a baby in a pram.. e q was moving n they passed this button which u press to activate e taxi beacon light at the main road to inform taxis dat there are pple @ e taxi stand.. these tkc looked at e unlit button and had e following conversation:

A: what's this button for?
B: orh, it's to press and call for taxi..
C: issit?
B: yes.. but i think muz pay..
A: oh! then we better dun press..

with that, they left e button untouched n unlit..

irritated w their stupidity, my index finger reached for e button.. e tkc saw wat i did n said, "see! u embarrased or nt? it's to activate e taxi beacon light! hahaha! let's hurry get a taxi n go off.."

i'm amused by them.. they r here, e country where english is first language but apparently, they no-no engrish.. coz there was a BIG signage saying, 'press to activate taxi beacon light'..

*diao*

2008-12-05T21:02:00.004+08:00

presents.to.meself

yeah!! i finally bought e t&c pendant dat i've been eyeing for ages.. remember i said they were too ex?? well, they ARE still ex bt i figured i shld change away e old stuff hanging on me plus i've gt reasons to pamper meself - xmas is coming n so is me bday! hahaha~

so, here's wat i bought..

e t&c pendant dat i've eyed for ages.....

me new t&c bracelet

nx few stuff to eye - e earrings.. hahaha! bt guess it'll b nx few years dat i purchase them.. oh, these r my 1st purchases fr t&c! my previous ones were gifts fr e men of e past thus i decided to ditch them for e new ones..

new life = new stuff!

merry xmas all! =)

2008-11-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

invasion of TKL

they r everywhere! n i really mean everywhere! there's NO one corner in sg that dun haf them.. i mean, each division i went for an event, there's bound to b at least ONE.. wa piangs.. hw can they infiltrate us dat fast???!!!! so scary!!

let's see.. i went bp, nsc, bt, wl, cp n up.. all of them haf leh! :S

n till todate, i feel they r uncouth..

juz today, at my morning event.. this tka trying her luck to squeeze herself into a snake of pple guai guai q-ing up for e goodie bag.. n dis coordinator of mine, v garang! she pushed e tka out of e q n scolded her loudly! buahahaha! at first i thought it's a fight so i made my way there bt when i saw wat it was abt, i u-turned.. hahaha! e poor tka bo bian, made her way to e end of e snake.. hahaha!

ediot.. come here, learn our rules lo.. though we r kiasu, we still haf sm manners n can b v orderly in times of chaos..

tia wu bo, TKLsssss!

2008-11-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

so.tired #2

oh! i didn't mention that i had to drag myself for go! brisk walk @ ulu pandan in e evening.. haha! that's why this weekend is like my most tiring weekend EVER! ggrrrrrr..

though i'm dead tired, i dun mind gng for the go! brisk walk coz it's at my old hometown = GHIM MOH! hahaha! nice to be brought back to a place filled w memories..

luckily for us, ulu pandan has done n liaised most of e stuff liaoz so we r more of there to facilitate! kekeke! unlike others, which they juz come n sit n TRY to do something.. hahaha! well, it's e 6th of e 8 series.. so we juz haf 2 more to go before we end this series! but heng ar, it's gng to b nex mth! hahahaha!

alrighty, gonna turn in early.. way tired man..

nites all!

nites god.. thank u for keeping e weather good for both events.. though my heart nearly dropped for e evening event when it started pouring.. but heng ar, u helped to clear e skies! =D

2008-11-30T14:16:00.002+08:00

so.tired

*yawns*

i wanna sleep.. i'm so tired..

dis wkend is e MOST tiring of my 2yr stint @ cdc.. it's like a working weekend!

it started w me things - lunchie w ju & di, followed by shopping!! kakaka! went to look see look see for a working bag.. n chanced upon a gucci one! kekeke.. might b getting it soon wor! *wink*

then went to t&c s i wanted to get a new bracelet s well s pendant n gosh! e freaking bracelet is $560!!! n e pendant is like $300+++ when it was abt $200++ last time! *fainted* owells, i skipped dat 2 items n will think thru further if i wanna get it or nt.. eh, most likely it's a yes la.. bt mayb in e mth of dec! buahahaha! n mayb juz get e bracelet.. =)

it was la senza nex n hahahaha! we bought e same one! or rather, similar one! hahahaha! coz it was 5 for $30 ma.. so we shared lo.. kekeke!

rushed to yishun to take a look at my event site b4 rushing hm to cook for bibi.. *ring ring* my contractor called n asked if i can run hm to open my hs door for his worker s he left his bag inside.. gosh! so i bo bian lor.. made a trip hm to open door lo.. toopid TKL..

went over zhcc for an opera.. luckily, e stay ain't v long.. nt that e opera was boring (it was actually quite amusing man!) bt i juz wanted to rest earlier for a longer sunday tomolo..

*yawns*

woke up abt 530am to get ready for me event.. *sigh* smhw always got glitches.. mayb i shld haf made more detailed planning.. muz get my ass or eyes to have an eye for details if nt, my events r going to be worse!!!

1st: one goh was like early n smhw did nt noe wat he's gng to do n was grumbling..

2nd: distribution pt too small n nt wat we had ordered e contractor to do at all.. kena left, right, centre, up, down, horizontal, diagonal, u name it.. i got it fr me boss..

3rd: xiao hei gt lost in e park n e marshals ain't like helping (bt i dun blame her, e park is one confusing forested area.. shld haf accompanied her there or at least haf a site recce prior..)

4th: bottleneck at e distribution pt (bt heng, it was carefully managed by e many volunteers)..

5th: no pple accompanying M when he going ard e booth.. i nearly fainted!!!

*sigh*

think i really shld open my eye for detail n plan more thorough!!! it's pek chek man.. rather, disappointed w myself.. things could haf been better..

ggrrrrrr!!! gng to make things better!!! nx event - women's walk.. let's DO it!!!

2008-11-23T10:05:00.003+08:00

bitch.session

itz been sum x dat all e bitches las met for a bitching session.. last fri, we had one such session at our usual hangout - kopi club @ holland v.. amazingly, it was e usual table we used to sit too! haha!

e bitching session was great! all of us need such a session some time or another, to laugh our stress out of our working minds.. heehee~ looking forward to our nx session! =)

2008-11-18T22:58:00.003+08:00

innovative

passed by this shop when i was at a site recce this afternoon..

u noe, usually e shop has an english n a chinese name ya? well, this shop's english name is so innovative! it's actually e hokkien version of e shop's name! n e name is oh so obvious that any person who sees e name would noe what this shop is selling! hahahaha!

kool eh!

hahaha! another such names is e more popular kopitiam! kekeke!

juz.for.fun!

2008-11-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

1.day.leave

took 1 day leave today to do loads of stuff.. here's wat baby n i did..

9.45am
drove to expo, hopefully to grab sm bargains at e crocs expo sale.. being a friday morning, we thought it was gng to b a breeze.. no pushing, no shoving, no stepping on toes.. boy, r we wrong! we reached there at abt 10.15am n it was tmd PACKED (mind u, e sale opened at 10.00am)!! our jaws dropped when we saw e crowd bt nevertheless, decided to join in e pushing n shoving..

it was actually quite fun, observing pple being kiasu (oh, i diverted my attn to e apparels as there was lesser crowd while baby went to b e uncle.. ;p) anyhows, we managed to grab a pair of slippers n a few apparels for our niece n nephews n walked to e cashier, beaming n exhausted..

our jaws dropped e 2nd time coz e q was ridiculously LOOOOOOONG (e q was snaked in a 'L' shape across e expo hall!) we couldn't b bothered waiting s we needed to run to sm other place so we simply placed our shopping at a corner n walked off while commenting dat those q-ing pple were mad la, were greedy abt such a small sale la.. (hahaha! bt it felt more of sour grapes.. =p)

11.00am
bk was our nx stop s we've yet to take bfast.. after a quick munch, we went to visit e asia pac food expo too.. hahaha! so uncle n aunty-ish ya? ok la.. was quite an experience for myself n brought bak memories when i always accompanied mum to such expo..

12.00pm
arrived @ gnee hong furniture to get our dining chairs.. read fr e renotalk forums dat stuff there were pretty cheap, so went to check them out.. n YES, they r relatively cheaper la.. i got my panton chairs @ $85 each when it costs abt few hundreds at sm other places.. u noe la, they came fr e island of all copies.. =)

12.45pm
italu lightings.. e place reccomended by baby's fren to get gangs (u noe, light switches? gang is like e jargon.. haha!) bought all e funny things dat my electrician said he needed.. kekeke..

2.00pm
goodwood park hotel to meet mei fung to select e decor for our solemnisation.. shall nt mention anything here atm.. *giggles*

2.45pm
went to look for ark to get my fringe trimmed.. smhw, my gm was nagging at me to get my fringe trimmed.. well, i was thinking abt trimming it too coz it's covering my beautiful eyebrows! buahahaha!

3.45pm
reached our house to take a look at reno progress n receive all e sanitary stuff such s bathtub n blah blah blah.. kekeke.. so exciting oh!

5.15pm
back hm to cook for bibi

6.30pm
dinner @ labrador park.. wooooooooo.. there's this city beach resort that's juz newly opened n beside it is a seafood restaurant which is nt too bad.. tried their salted fish fried rice, veggies n salted egg crabbie.. quite nice oh! another place for crabbie! we'll b back..

8.00pm
our 1st shopping trip @ vivocity w baby.. kekeke~ it was more of w a purpose than plain shopping.. our mission? to get dat flipping wall clock! hahaha! after walking in circles for a while, we managed to find e shop n get e clock we wanted!

woohoo! nw, i can't wait for month end to come so dat i can finally see my masterpiece! juz 11 more days or so.. yes! hahaha!

ok, i'm tired.. gng to bathe nw n head to lala-land.. got a mtg tomolo morning!
yawns.. zzZzzZzzZzz..

2008-11-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

me.birthday

it's another 19 + 30 days till me bday! woots! it's always been one day that i loooooook forward to.. nt dat i'm happy to see my numbers ticking up, bt it's juz a special ocassion to me! u noe, it's MY BIRTHDAY! buahahaha!

me birthdays used to be a big party, together w frenz at different kinda venues.. with booze, ciggies n loads of laughter.. things haf since mellowed.. mayb bcoz of age.. bt, i miss those party times i once had.. it was duper fun! let's see wat i've done b4..

younger days
had big big bash @ kampung w a big table filled w food, specially cooked by mum n aunties! it then moved to big bash @ ghim moh (me old flat).. every year, i had a celebration of sm kind.. heh heh~ pampered eh? =)

2000
bday bash @ home.. e usual buffet w loads of frenz (ech mates, #clubbing peeps) n relatives, followed by a partying session @ ridleys w my v own area, sponsored by my then god-bro!

2001
ooooops! i dun remember.. if i remember, i'll post it up again.. heeheehee~ anyone remember??

2002
if i dun remember wrongly, had a small celebration w sm close frenz @ di's place.. we had a bbq using a self-made bbq pit! it was also e same time which spencer cheng used his 'eye power'! hahahaha! till todate, aunty still remember that!! ;p

2003
bbq session @ aloha loyang w many many frenz (sec sch mates, pcf, nokians, long time frenz) n me relatives! had a honking good time too! even had a special performance by lester, who swallowed a long balloon there n then! celebrated di di's bday too!

2004
celebrations at e very las minute @ hilmi's old cafe.. live band sang bday song for me! was quite a surprise too..

2005
a simple celebration w xiao hei zhu @ marina square's swensons'.. followed by fireworks wowing at marina promenade.. first simple celebration bt a touching one.. xiao hei zhu sacrificed her countdown to keep me company.. nt only dat, she came by juz b4 xmas ended to make my xmas less lonely n even sprang a surprise - white xmas! thanks xiao hei zhu! was really touched by wat u haf done.. =)

2006
bday surprise @ di di's place! first surprise bday party w surprise guests! thanks ju & di for arranging!! i'll nvr forget that party! =D

2007
spent it @ bkk w baby.. first bday celebrations overseas! =)

most of them had e regular guests - bayi, di, ju, jazz.. my buddies!

beautiful memories, always etched in me heart..

2008-11-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

gOOd.mOrning (cont'd)

after e bus stint, things went fairly okay throughout e day..

BUT! on e way back, i accidentally stepped on this loose tile dat had a puddle of water underneath it n splash! my legs gt wet.. n i was rushing for time to go for a mtg! ggrrrrr.. i was so pek chek.. ultimate man!

luckily, things came to a full stop thereafter n i had a me time with a facial session after work.. =D

2008-11-11T08:50:00.002+08:00

gOOd.mOrning!

itz gonna b a better day today! =)

for a start, i woke up early! hahaha! (that explains y i'm blogging nw..)

yesterday was crap, totally CRAP..
it started w heavy rain e moment i stepped out of e house when i planned to cab to work coz of e load i'm carrying.. being in an ulu place makes it diff to take a cab liaoz, what more with e heavy rain.. ggrrrrr..

nvm, i went hm to put my stuff n went to e bus stop instead.. guess what? e bus juz left! tmd.. n dat bus takes ages to come, for sm reason or another.. ggrrrr!!

oh, i gtg liaoz.. tbc tonight!

2008-11-07T23:21:00.003+08:00

foreign.talent

past few weeks, the topic on foreign workers seemed to b e talk of e town (other than e financial recession).. i, for one, do understand hw fellow singaporeans feel.. however, on e other hand, i do agree that we need them..

why do i say so?

simple.. when i went to see hw my hs is doing, e workers i met there are all foreign talents.. e bangladeshi worker is laying e electrical cables while at e corner, a chinese national is plastering e wall w cement.. 1 minute later, two malaysians came by and laid the piping for me air-con..

interesting eh?

i find that amusing too.. my house, is being renovated by foreign talents whether i like it or not.. i'm amazed at their versatility.. they haf dis hunger to learn any skills n courage to take on jobs that r shunned by many singaporeans.. mayb it's bcoz they r more than a hundred miles away fr hm bt it's still smthing to applaud them..

where r e singaporeans then?

oh, they r my contractor n e sales guy whom explained e difference between an inverter air-con and e conventional type.. that's us, singaporeans.. e need and want to sit in an air-conditioned place to work or haf a proper chair and table for meals.. that's us.. shaking our legs, enjoying e air-con n complaining abt people whom put in perspiration to build a roof over our heads..

so i support foreign talent?

yes, to a certain extent.. we truly truly need them.. w/o them, will our streets be clear of garbage? w/o them, what kind of housing will we b living in? bt i also do agree dat there is a portion of them dat may nid to go thru an etiquette course.. bt that's prob due to culture n background eh? we're juz luckier..

we ain't angels ourselves.. juz coz they ain't singaporeans, doesn't mean they ain't human.. y dun we learn to accept them for who they r.. put yrself in their shoes.. hw wld u feel if u were ostricised n thrown into some containers that u need to call hm, in e forested area away from e hustle n bustle?

i wld feel sucky.. hw abt u?

2008-11-02T22:27:00.004+08:00

evenly patterned clouds while in e car
(proudly taken by my nokia e71!)

2008-11-02T22:20:00.003+08:00

smiling meatball spaghetti!

heh.. couldn't finish my, 'meatball ate the manhattan spaghetti' from nydc.. so decided to b creative w them before e waitress grab the plate n send them to e bin.. =)

2008-11-01T20:48:00.002+08:00

retail.therapy

finally a sat off!

went to town to snip snip me hair n pluck pluck eyebrow.. met up w ju for late lunch n also retail therapy! e whole shopping stint was great! bought stuff that i nid n ju gt hers too! oh, we also saw e lambo gang vrooooming dwn orchard road too! abt 10 to 20 of them in an array of colours! coooooooooool! heehee~

after 4hrs of squeezing thru e crowd from pacific plaza to wisma n then paragon before heading back has resulted in me having tired legs.. BUT it's worth it! heehee~

at least, it was unwind time amidst work n all e happenings at hm.. =)

2008-10-31T22:10:00.002+08:00

woohoo!

i'm looking forward to e end of november (or even earlier)! coz it's that period that my ideas come to life! so excited! i can't wait for that day to come! of coz, it's gonna b taxing bt at least it's worth it!

heehee~ gonna post again when that day comes! *bleah*

2008-10-25T09:48:00.008+08:00

wedding.of.minfu.&.lili

was tasked e videographer while ed was tasked e photographer.. luckily for me, e reporting time was 9.00am.. 'coz i juz got back fr me camp ya n m super tired..

anyways, i juz wanna post e pics of e wedding.. or rather, MY pics taken at e wedding.. buahaha! wat to do.. i'm cam sensitive (better known as cam whore).. *bleah*

doubling up as e tie-tying!

me bitch, di di! (e sista of e groom)

funny pics @ the cathay restaurant

quick nap @ di di's house

e bitches' kissing attempt..

e BIG chair n small me..

hhmmmm..

e door bitch, ju & videographer, me..

chit-chatting w THE bear..

e photographer, ed n me (self-shot!)

crazy di, hidden ju, 'fierce' me..

food for thought..

heehee.. i eat 1st hor..

mouth poses by e bride, me, di!

2008-10-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

backie.from.camp

was away for camp @ nacli from last tue till fri evening.. it was sm leadership course which also means it was boring.. yeaps, it was daily lectures from 9.00am to about 8.00pm.. no physical activity, no games.. juz books n speakers n videos n powerpoint slides..

BUT

it was inspiring.. e daily reflections forced my brain cells to work.. i thought about alot of stuff.. if this job is what i wanted n still want.. if i wanna subject myself to more burnt weekends, still.. many things i thought about n still thinking..

HOWEVER

i had 2 take-aways from e long long camp..

1) e word, 'renewal' - asking myself wat got me into this job.. how i get job satisfaction..

2) e phrase, 'do today what u plan tomorrow'.. this hit me straight in e face.. i noe myself as procrastinator.. i'll always tell myself, "aiyah, can do tomolo ma" but smtimes ended up delaying a few months! that phrase found its way to my head n i've been reciting that phrase e past few days n hopefully, i can improve on my procrastination.. mayb that will help me finish more work in lesser time.. but it's those sian times when u juz wanna be a little more laid-back after running a full marathon..

yeah.. let's see where this place takes me n hopefully, i can renew myself once again.. i've been too sian to work.. maybe coz my battery is dead..

BUT

i'm still getting job satisfaction w e r/s i have w coordinators (esp after last nite's meeting @ ad, i felt this bond w them.. it's always a nice feeling to b on gd terms w pple u work w).. i've great bosses that guide n whom i've learnt tons from.. i've fantastic colleagues whom u can juz sit back n yak to while snacking on all kinds of titbits..

yeah, i'm really grateful for these peeps..
let's juz see hw things go..
=)

2008-10-11T15:26:00.004+08:00

2009, here i come!

u might think i'm xiao.. it's only october.. there's 2 more mths n 20 days before it turns 2009.. true true.. but who cares! when there's 2009 organisers / diary / planner, ready on e shelves, waiting to be snapped by those enthu pple!

yeaps, i'm one of those enthu (some say kiasu) pple! hahaha! i bought me 2009 planner liaoz! buahahaha! somehow, i was excited when i was on my way to pick it up from taka's kino (oh, i made a reservation, thinking it wld b snapped up).. hahaha! but at e same time, my pocket was crying.. e price was a whopping $41.00..........................

here's what i got in exchange for the price:

moleskine monthly diary in soft cover

i was looking for a monthly planner but e ones in e market were all A4 or A5 size.. dis one by moleskine was in between! so, it's e perfect size for me bag! lurve it so much! kekeke~

at e back of the book, there's dis expandable pocket that you can put stuff in too! hw convenient! heehee~ so, ya.. it's a worthy investment that i can use it for e nex many many mths! =)

alrights, time for me to fill in my little black book..