Neglected...

I'm feeling neglected by him..

No calls / sms from him today.. Don't know what he is doing right now nor where he is.. His work keeps him real busy, yes I understand but what about his gf? Does that mean he need not show something to his gf? Everytime, he'll say no time.. What's 5 seconds in his entire day to pop an sms to make his gf's day?!

I've been understanding towards his weird timings of work, his love for ice hockey and everything else that he wants. What about mine? I need some time with him too! Weekdays we seldom go out and enjoy ourselves as a couple. Come weekend, Saturday is hockey day. Sunday, at last a day for us to enjoy each other's company but nooooo, he wants to go for ice hockey in the night.. "We can go out in the afternoon what!" was what he said. Did he think of the preparation time prior to his ice hockey nite? We'll need to rush from wherever we are to pick his things / friends up before heading to the ice at 9+. 2 weeks ago, he agreed to go on alternate weeks. So happen, news of Thailand trip was released and as it was in Sep, he has to attend every trainings if he wants to go. At that very moment, did he think of me? Why should he think of me? All weekends in Sep, he has events to run and on that particular weekend that he is free, is the Thailand trip. He didn't even bother to discuss with him.. Never gave a second thought and agreed. Never thought that he could use that weekend to make up for the few lost weekends..

All I want is for him to say, "Baby, sorry I've neglected you. Let's have dinner this Friday." He mentioned before hs needs to put in more effort but where is it? Have I been too accommodating that he's taking it for granted? Such simple things that I need, I don't get yet I get ticked off for being demanding.. Am I demanding? Wanting to spend one full Sunday with my bf in an entire week? Not bothering him during his work? I don't need him to sms me everyday, once in a while during lunch or while he's smoking. Probably too much to ask for.

Talk to him? Been there, done that many times. Outcome of the talk? Either I'm just too demanding or a promise that he'll put in more effort. Where am I in his heart? Am I taken for granted? If I don't take the first move, will he? I'm tired of moving.. I'm a girl, I need to be loved and pampered too.. Is that so difficult? I really don't know..