life's journey

one's life's journey is filled with ups and downs, straights and bends.. there were happy moments, worth keeping in a safe for us to bring it out as and when we want to.. how about those unhappy ones that scarred us? do we have a powerful eraser, similiar to that of the delete button on our keyboards, for us to bring it to life whenever we need to erase some of the happenings?

but then again, those experiences were the ones that moulded me to the person i am today.. skeptical, independent, guarded.. all evolving as seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years passed..

sick and tired i am now, with regards to relationship.. confused seems to be the only word suitable to describe me now.. the heart wants to hide while e brain heads for the open.. as a result, confusion builds up and turns life into a whole entire maze, not knowing where to go.. after a period of heads-on, a ray of light shone and made it a whole lot clearer on the kind of path i am treading on..

being the skeptical little bitch, nothing from the opposite sex seems to be able to penetrate the thick wall that miraculously built by itself.. so heavily guarded now.. as much as the brain wants to try, the heart is nowhere to be found.. comes to me as a surprise at the impact the last relationship provided me..

several guys came and gone in my life.. it's becoming a chore to be going through the process of knowing a person all over agan.. and so i shared, i am sick and tired of the whole thing. masks on and we try to pull each others down while an impression is painted based on the false knowledge and ultimately, the last person you least expect will be an ass, has turned into an one.. what's there to comment further? nothing..

perceptions have changed.. and it will stay changed..