were we wrong?

last nite, we headed down to mos for some fun with a long-time fren who juz came back from china.. similar to all other cheong-ing occasions, we ordered like tons of drinks.. this time, i got super high.. along with sumpat, who knocked out n fell asleep at one of e table..

abt 3+am, we were abt to go back as we were pretty high but one was missing.. thinking she'd probably gone to e toilet, we went to find her.. nope.. not in e toilet.. ju then suggested that i go out with my other frenz to wait while she go hunt for e girl.. i was too high to see properly.. things were ablur and i juz sat patiently outside waiting for ju n cong while they search hi n low for her.. i helped by constantly calling her mobile.. her mobile is off.. damn! could something have happened to her? my first thought, i juz want her to be alive n kicking.. i dun wanna lose a fren of 13 yrs juz like that.. i was that scared!

ju n cong came out of mos and went to comb clarke quay instead while i kept on pressing e dial button, hoping that i'll hear e ringing tone.. but still, it led to e voicemail.. gosh! we decided to call her house which her dad picked up and sounded quite mad 'coz of e timing.. i lied.. that her wallet was with me n that she went home w/o it (to save her arse as well)..

4am came and i really couldn't take it.. i was high, felt congested 'coz i wanted to puke but juz couldn't manage to.. i told ju n cong that i'd have to go back, along with another drunkie and a much sober one.. on e way home, i called her house again.. this time asking her dad to give us a buzz if she's home.. ain't easy trying to act all sober when ur freaking high and talking to someone's dad at that hour of e nite, pretending not to be worried at all..

sent e drunkie home in my not-so-sober state as well.. reached home, plonked on e bed but not before giving her a call again.. still i hear e bloody voicemail.. i sent her a text asking her to call us asap.. ju & cong stayed till 6am, they had wanted to wait till mos closes and clears their premises of drunkies.. no sight of her and they've no choice but to head home.. poor cong, had to work today.. guess he'll be super stoned..

this morning, tried calling as well.. still off.. but came 11am n i received a phonecall from her.. her attitude didn't sound sorry for making us worry.. in fact, it seemed to her that we were making a mountain outta a molehill.. made me pissed.. we couldn't sleep well 'coz we were worried sick of her safety n yet we get this treatment.. nevermind that she didn't say thank you.. nevermind that her story sounded absurd.. 'coz e only thing we wanted was her to be home safe and sound.. i told her to catch some rest since i believed she didn't sleep well either..

not long after, she smsed me n ju telling us in future not to call her house, no matter what happens.. goodness.. it seemed more like a reprimandment more than anything.. i was disappointed.. our theory when we go party is to go together and leave together as well.. she forgot about it but we didn't thus we couldn't leave e place w/o her.. and if anything did happen to her, what are we supposed to tell her dad? i got so mad at her sms then i rebuked her back and stopped replying to all her later smses..

were we wrong to call her house? i believe anybody would have done e same thing esp when e person's hp is off.. it was juz scary.. anywayz, it's her life.. so much for worrying for someone who doesn't wish to be worried..

m disappointed with her sms.. never believe she could say such stuff.. never in the 13 years of friendship.. if ur reading this, don't give me e shit of u not being a good person.. there's no such thing.. u know we'll always be there for u but u, being closed about ur issues is not gonna help at all.. think abt it.. if u wanna lie to us, frenz for such a long time and having gone thru' so much together, i shall keep my mouth shut then..