60 years old M.A.N

wat can he b stressed abt?
- job
- health
- money
- women
that's all i can think of..

e funny thing is.. he has..
- no housing loan to pay
- no exorbitant monthly bills
- no monthly allowance to fork out
- no worries for his offsprings s they r all doing good

is there anything to b stressed abt? i simply dun understand.

mum has left for 2 years 2 mths and 16 days.. that's about how long (or even longer) he has been visiting indo, tanjong pinang to be exact.. why he goes there is self-explanatory.. *sigh* disappointment.

S: "what are u stressed about?"
D: "i can't sleep! i've been to e doc! but i still can't sleep!"
S: "so what did e doc said?"
D: "nothing. i'm v stressed! i think i better commit suicide!" *cry*
S: *tear* "what is wrong? what are u stressed abt?"
D: "nothing! nothing!" *sobs*
S: "juz say it out. u dun say, i can't do anything s well!"
D: "nothing! nothing!" *sobs*
S: "is it money issues?"
D: *silence* "nothing! nothing!"
S: "aiyah! u dun say, how to help u?" *walks into e room*

if it'z money issue, it can be helped but if it'z gotta do w indo, i'm sorry but i can't do anything.. or rather, i won't bother doing anything.. neither will my bro.. he has given up hope.. even though it was HE who brought us into this world and fed us till this age..

e things that he did.. i can't forgive but yet i muz.. for my mum.. i can't turn my back on him when my bro has done that.. i feel i'm alone, carrying this responsibility especially when we are staying under 1 roof. my responsibility to take care of him, e person i call dad.. if i fail, i'll b deemed unfillal.. who will deem him s e person who let down on his loved ones? no one.. all eyes are on me..

i made a promise to mum on her deathbed - to take care of him.. but it's tolling on me.. i can't do it alone.. it'z stressful.. i can't do much if he doesn't speak up.. i can't scold him for the fact that i'm titled the daughter.. if it'z really w regards to health, i'm gonna flip.. i'm staying under e same roof.. i need some assurance s well.. i need a safe home n nt one that gives me e creeps..

i feel all alone.. no one for me to pour to.. no one for me to fall back on should i fail..