insecure vs over-sensitive

once again, i'm back to e insecure / over-sensitive self..
hw it happened? i dunno, i seriously dunno..

y can't everything b simplified?
boy loves girl, girl loves boy, they live happily ever after..

has he not done enough?
or m i refusing to see & accept that it is effort?

has he not been understanding?
or m i juz craving for more?

has he not gone my way?
or m i juz too domineering?

i wish to be able to voice out any thoughts to u..
i wish to get a hug when i'm feeling down..
i wish to hear that things will be ok when my thoughts run wild..

someone said to me before..
"don't expect..
'coz when it happens,
it'll come s a surprise..
when it doesn't,
ur not badly hit either.."

it may be my expectations have been rising secretly..
e devil in me that never gets enough but expects more n more..

ur correct, u never expect i'll b like that..
i was never like this..
i'm surprised n shocked by myself too..

i realized i've changed..
to someone who is protective of her feelings..
to e individual who is afraid of being hurt..

it's nt easy to stand up by myself after being knocked down by a few times..
i think i m still learning, to open up myself once again..

everyone has our own way of loving another person..
i dunno if there is a correct way of loving e other party - do i love him, my way or his?
in my pt of view (after much thinking), it's a blend of both..
to accept his way of loving me but to also make known that there r some other ways that i can feel loved.. this way, it meets both needs..

juz an example
- girl sees flowers s it's a proclaim of love but boy dislikes giving flowers.
- can things b worked out that e girl shld understand dat boy dislikes giving flowers n not expect while boy understand e way e girl sees e flowers n buys some for her on a special occasion?

was dat a good example? i dunno..

i dunno wat i'm blabbering abt..