headache

well, nt literally e hair-pulling kinda headache.. more of a decision-making kinda headache..
smhw, i think i'm at a crossroad.. i dunno hw i got there bt i did..

s much s i love my current job, it has also weighed me dwn.. it's a high key portfolio which means for e past 2yrs 4mths, i've been running non-stop on e treadmill turned up to 100km/h.. that's tiring n i do need a breather.. when i first came in, i was wondering y did e previous officers left after a stint of 2yrs or so? doesn't seem dat boring or difficult bt nw, i understand..

at e same time, i can't bring myself to juz drop dis portfolio n move to another.. y? 'coz i haf dis bond w my coordinators, champions n even walkers whom haf made my portfolio to grow to dis size.. n also bcoz it's a high key portfolio, it has given me opportunities to b seen n heard..

so, wat's my headache? well, i'm deciding where i shld go fr here.. there's a lateral transfer dat i can go to bt it's gonna b another 2yrs of proving myself b4 i can go for a promotion n i'm nt sure if it's wat i really wan.. OR i can move to another portfolio n wait for promo opp to come bt i'm nt sure if i'm doing it out of haste n jaded-ness.. OR i can go bak to e ech industry n b a principal bt dat will mean a BIG pay cut.. at dis juncture of hitting e big 3, i feel it's important to choose e correct career path..

mayb i juz need to recharge my batteries to continue my portfolio.. bt i can't find e source.. work is on my mind every other day.. my mind is constantly working n thinking abt work n e wat nots..

e irony abt me being tired of me job is dat e other day, i was preparing a ppt for a mtg n was calculating if we could achieve our M's dream of 50k.. guess wat? we WILL if everyone hit their targets!! n suddenly, i felt dis surge of happiness in me n e inability to let go of dis portfolio.. mayb coz e target was juz so high in e air dat i felt it was ridiculous n upon seeing it being achieveable juz blew me n made me realised dat our peeps are all putting efforts in one way or another.. dis unity of strength is simply amazing!

thus e headache.. alot of tugging everywhere n i can't seem to b clear abt things.. sigh.. HELP!