.regret.

i'm nt too sure if there is any1 out there who doesn't live in regrets.. mayb there is.. but i dun think i noe e fella.. heh~

well, talking abt regrets.. i had thought i wld nvr regret any decision i made.. but recently, i realised i regretted smthing that i decided a few mths back.. if any1 can rem, i had an offer to move to dis place (kinda known for a retirement village).. it was a lateral transfer.. i rejected it..

y i rejected it? at dat pt, i was hungry.. hungry n ambitious to climb e corporate ladder.. i had a good chance to move on to e nex level n get a promotion.. thus i rejected e offer to b exposed to another field of work.. thinking back, i feel so stupid to reject that offer.. but, i can't turn back time.. so, i'm stuck at my current place.. doing e things that i've been doing for e past 2.5yrs..

i think i'm quite tired.. tired of e constant running for e past years.. i need to stop n take a breather.. smhw, it juz hit me that there's more to life than climbing up dat corporate ladder.. e time spent in front of my lappie on weekends, cld haf been better spent w frenz or w e j siblings..

xiao hei is rite.. i'm tired.. but i still lurve my portfolio.. juz dat i dun seem to haf e strength to carry on running.. currently, i feel kinda stuck.. i can't change portfolio 'coz there's no other vacancies.. i can't move to another division 'coz of sm reason (nt dat i offended other pple).. sigh.. nvr had i feel so stuck in life.. i've always been v clear n confident of my decisions.. bt nw, i'm holding bak.. every x i think of walking north, i stop n think..

i need to take dat 1 brave step dat xiao hei said.. yes.. 1 brave step.. bt hw??? wanna lateral transfer, no vacancies.. n time seems to b running out.. on e other hand, i m thinking to go bak to e education industry bt i haf smthing dat is holding me bak.. ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

i need a light!!!!!!!!!!! or rather, a directional sign..

hw i wish life can b e same as e adventure book dat i read when i was young.. u noe, e kind which u had to make decisions n u flip to this particular page.. yeap.. coz if u made e wrong decision n 'die' earlier, u can always trace bak!! ggrrrrrrrr!

help me, god.. i really need an opening.. if nt, i need e strength to carry on w my portfolio.. it seems dat's e only 2 options i haf.. sigh..