January 22, 2006

Love is being Selfish and Giving

Last night, or rather this wee morning, I text D asking if everything was A ok with him.. That led to a much lengthier 'conversation' than I expected.. I found out a lot of things which came to me as a shock and to my surprise, ached my heart..

It started with him asking me seriously if I've really moved on and after careful thinking, I replied yes.. The conversation then went on a rather serious note.. He was very frank and straightforward.. He told me, "I like this gal very much but because you r my ex, we are taking things slow." Faint... I presume I know that gal and not only that, I think I know her pretty well.. He went on saying that they like each other very much and he's ready for a long-term relationship.. That came straight in the face.. He's ready.. Even though our 1yr 8mths relationship ended less than a month ago.. Ok, that's beside the point..

I told him simply, Love is Selfish.. Do not care about how others will think / feel / see.. What matters most is that both of you are serious and committed in this relationship.. I went on by saying, "Go for her if you really like her.." After some exchange of texts, he actually thanked me.. Hhmmm.. What did I do?? I did nothing but told him how I felt..

True, it's hurting to know that the guy whom you loved so much before is so ready to move on when he actually said he didn't want to have a relationship, he can't commit, dun wan to be tied down, blah blah blah.. But what can I do?? Both of us have a life to live.. I've moved on and so has he.. I actually believed him 'coz I know for the longest time, he cannot commit.. To think now he says that he's ready for a long-term relationship, that really shocked me..

Anyway, that's that.. I just wish that I'll be the first to know 'coz I'd wanna hear from his mouth.. Seriously, I dunno how I'll react if I see the both of them together but I guess time and God will help me.. My mummy will too 'coz they've done it for me before.. Best of luck, D.. I do wish your HOPE for me will come true..

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