His Decision

This dated some time back actually... Like before Vday? To cut e long story short, it is about a guy who used to be in my life... We got back in contact, feelings came about but there's a catch... He's attached... At that time, they were in this seperation period... We went out a few times, enjoyed our time together, talked about anything under e sky... Somehow or rather, we gotta know of each other's feelings... I believed he was in a fix... Didn't know what to do... Anyhows, he decided to go back to his girlfriend of 5 years to try it again... I had wanted to go MIA from his life but I simply can't...

It was a shitty feeling 'coz he did mention that probably the gf is not the right girl for him... He's tired of all the shit that's happening but I guess he has a very strong feeling towards her and I don't blame him for that... If it was many years ago, I would have cut into his life and 'fought' for what I want... But now, there isn't a point in me doing all these... If we are meant to be, we are meant to be... Funny thing is that we always have this 'What if we are together' and 'Let's say we are together'... Just bubbles of dreams... Can't read too much into it...

Our relationship was v short and sweet... No quarrels, no fights... Maybe that was why the feelings came back after so long... I was amazed at how well we could talk to each other... Friends around say that leave him... No point 'waiting' for him... But somehow I want to wait, probably hoping for THE day to come... No no no, don't get me wrong... I'm not hoping anything bad to happen to him and his gf... Of course, I'd want him to be happy... But of course somewhere in my heart, I'd want to be with him and give us another shot... The differences we had last time were minor and ain't present in our current lives anymore...

Oh well, we'll just have to see how things go... If THE day comes but I'm attached or I've lost all feelings, it's really a case of wrong timing... We live for ourselves... We fight for what we want...