my supposed bday bash *poof*

as i read e file - Sharon's birthday bash, sent to me by ah le.. i realized he really put in ALOT of effort for my bday.. gosh! it was a total planning! there were pple in charge of different things.. my goodness.. so much details put into e bday bash.. so many pple involved.. it nearly brought a tear to my eye..

ah le.. u've put in alot for us.. i'm really, really sorry that we turned out this way.. i'm sorry that e bday bash is not able to come alive.. i'm sorry that i destroyed all e plans.. it was like a dream come true, to have a surprise bday party.. but stupid me, destroyed everything..

i saw e list of pple.. all of 'em, pple i loved.. i so wanna see.. goodness.. *sobs*

thank u..