decision

i have to make a decision..

do i stay n try my v v v best to get my performance up the scale?

do i leave n experience a brand new place at e same level?

having gone for 2 interviews for e position n getting 2 smashes in e face, i smhw felt that mayb gng over there but being at e same level wld gif me a better edge as compared to me gng directly fr where i m (w no experience).. sounds logical eh?

but there's a part of me that is nt satisfied.. y is it others can go directly bt nt me?! wat is it that i did wrong? or m i juz suey these mths that i always choose e wrong place?!

a part of me wants to throw bak all i have n leave to e new place but yet a part of me wants to stay n prove myself.. it's a challenge.. coz i'm jaded..

juz nw, after gym n ovr din din, uncle ed n tabs said i shld go to a new place even though it's lateral movement.. coz i've been jaded w my current position for so long.. time will pass slowly.. but if i go to a new place, things will b different.. brand new place w brand new things to learn..

i dunno.. i m lost.. wat do i wan.. mayb i juz dun like e feeling that colleagues who joined after me managed to climb up e ladder earlier.. i do nt know which is a correct choice.. do i stay n TRY to do my best? or do i go? having a lateral movement ain't that bad ya? bt come to think of it, pple are trying to get into my place while i seem to b e only crazy fella trying to go down.. wth!

*confused & can't think properly*